Book of Heaven
This morning, having received Holy Communion as usual, I was saying to my dear Jesus: My sweet Life, I do not want to be alone when I am with You. I want everything and everyone together with me. Not only do I want the crown of all your children, but I also want the crown of all things created by You. Then, all together with me, prostrate at your feet, we may adore You, thank You and bless You in the endlessness of your Most Holy Will in which I find everything.
In the meantime, I saw all created things running to surround Jesus, so each one could pay its homage to Him.
I said to Him: Do You see, my Love, how beautiful your works are? See how the sun, opening its way with its rays, prostrates itself to adore You. Then it rises up to You to embrace You and kiss You? See how the stars, form a crown around You? They smile at You with their sweet flickering and say to You: Great are You. We give You glory forever and ever. See how the sea flows? With its harmonious murmuring, like many silvery voices, it says to You: Infinite thanks to our Creator. Together with the sun, I embrace You and kiss You. With the stars, I recognize You and glorify You. With the sea, I thank You.
Who knows what I was saying, calling all created things around Jesus? If I tried to say everything, I would be too long. It seemed to me that each created thing had a distinct office to be able to pay its homage to its Creator.
While I was doing this, I thought I was wasting time and that that was not the thanksgiving to be made for Jesus after Communion, and I said this to Jesus.
He, all goodness, told me: My daughter, my Will contains everything, and nothing of what belongs to Me must escape one who lives in It. On the contrary, even if only one thing escapes her, that is enough to say that she does not give Me all the honor and the glory which my Will contains. If this is the case then it cannot be said that her life is completely in It, nor does she give Me the return of all that my Will has given her. In fact, I have given everything to one who lives in my Will, and I go to her triumphantly, upon the wings of my works, to give her a new return of my Love. She must come along the same path as Mine to give Me a new return of her love.
Wouldnt it be delightful for you if you had made many beautiful and various works, and someone, who is loved by you, placed them around you to please you? Imagine her showing them to you one by one and saying to you: Look at these. They are your works. How beautiful this one is! That one is so artistic! What joy you would experience! What glory for you! It is the same for Me. Moreover, since one who lives in my Will, having to centralize everything within herself, must be like the heartbeat of all Creation. Just as all things palpitate in her by virtue of my Will. So she must form one single heartbeat. She must return to Me, in that heartbeat, the heartbeats of everyone and of everything. She will bring back to Me the glory and the love of all things that came from Me. I must find all in the soul in whom my Will reigns, so that, containing all, she may give Me all that the others should give Me.
My daughter, living in my Will is very different from the other sanctities. This is why, up until now, the way and the true teachings of living in It cannot be found. One can say that the other sanctities are the shadows of my Divine Life; while my Will is the source of the Divine Life. So, be attentive in the exercises of living in my Will so that from you may come the true way and the exact and precise teachings. This is so those who want to live in It may find the true Sanctity of the Divine Life rather than just a shadow.
Furthermore, since my Humanity on earth was in the Divine Will, there was no work, thought, or word which was not enclosed in Me, covering all the works of the creatures. One can say that I had a thought for each thought and a word for each word, all to glorify my Father completely, and to give light, life, goodness and remedies to the creatures.
Everything exists in my Will, and one who must live in It, must enclose all creatures. She must go through all my acts again and place on them another beautiful divine shade, taken from my Will. Doing this, She will be giving Me the return of all I did. Only someone who lives in my Will can give Me this return. I await her as the means to connect the Divine Will with the human, giving her the goodness It contains. I want a creature as an intermediary, someone who will go through the same path my Humanity covered in my Will. She may then open the door of the Kingdom of my Will, which had been closed by the human will. Hence, your mission is great. It takes a lot of sacrifice and great attention.
I felt immersed in the Supreme Volition, as Jesus continued: My daughter, my Will is everything and contains everything. It is the origin, the means and the end of man. This is why, in creating him, I did not give him a law, nor did I institute Sacraments. All I gave man was my Will. It was sufficient for him, since he was in the origin of It. There he could find all he needs to reach, not a low sanctity, but the height of the Divine Sanctity, and finally find himself at the harbor of his end. This means that man didnt need anything but my Will. There he was to find everything he needed, and in a surprising, admirable and easy way, to become holy and happy in time and Eternity. I gave him a law because, after centuries and centuries of creation, man had lost his origin, so he had lost his ends and means.
The law was not an origin, but a means. However, even with all of my laws, man was still getting lost. So when I came down upon the earth I instituted the Sacraments, as a stronger and more powerful means to save him. But there were so many abuses, so many profanations! Many use the law and even the Sacraments for sinful purposes and they fall into hell! While with my Will alone, being the origin, the means and end, the soul places herself in safety and she rises to Divine Sanctity. She reaches, in a thorough manner, the purpose for which she was created, and there is not a hint of danger that she might offend Me. My Will is the only safe way. The Sacraments themselves, if they are not received in accord with my Will, can serve as a means of condemnation and of ruin. This is why I teach about my Will so much. Its because the soul, being in her original state, will have the means be favorable to her, and she will receive the fruits which they contain. On the other hand, without It, the Sacraments themselves may be poisonous to her, leading her to eternal death.
This morning, while I was in my usual state, not knowing whether I was dreaming, I saw my late Confessor. He seemed to take something twisted from within my mind and he fixed it and untied it.
I asked him why he was doing that, and he said to me: I have come to tell you to be attentive to order. God is order, and one sentence, even one word, of what the Lord tells you, which you do not report just as it is, is enough to put it out of order. It may cause doubts and difficulties in those who will read what you write about His Adorable Will.
On hearing this, I asked: Have I been writing disordered things up until now?
And the Confessor: No, no, but in the future, pay attention. Let the things you write be as clear and simple as Jesus says them to you and omit nothing. Even if just one little sentence or one word of what Jesus tells you is missing or if you write it differently, thats enough to make it inoperative. In fact, those expressions, however minute, provide light, allowing the meaning to be understood with greater clarity. They are links in the order of truths which good Jesus manifests to you. You are apt to omit many seemingly little things, but the little things link the great, and the great link the little. Therefore, be attentive in the future, so that everything can be in good order.
Having said this, he disappeared, and I became a bit concerned.
Afterwards, I was abandoning myself completely in the Holy Divine Will when my Jesus began moving inside.
He told me: My daughter, how beautiful it is to see a soul operate in my Will! She plunges her action, her thought and her word into my Will. She is like a sponge. As she becomes soaked with all the goodness my Will contains, many divine acts can be seen emanating light in the soul.
Its sometimes hard to distinguish whether they are acts of the Creator or of the creature.
Becoming impregnated with this Eternal Will, they have absorbed within themselves a power, a light and the Eternal Majestys way of operating. Look at yourself! How beautiful my Will has made you. Moreover, It encloses Me in each one of your acts, because, enclosing my Will, you enclose everything.
I looked at myself, and oh, how much light came out! But what struck me and pleased me the most was to see my Jesus enclosed in each one of my acts. His Will imprisoned Him within me.
As I was in my usual state, I found myself outside of my body, together with my most sweet Jesus. He was all goodness and do admirable. He took my hands in His and pressed them tightly to His breast.
With so much love, He told me: My beloved daughter, if you only knew how much pleasure I feel, how much flavor I taste while speaking to you about my Will! Every additional thing I teach you about my Will is one more happiness I unleash from Myself. When this joy communicates itself to the creature, I feel happier in her by virtue of my own happiness. In fact, the distinctive specialty of my Will is exactly this: to make God and man happy. Dont you remember, my daughter, how much delight we had together, I in speaking to you, and you in listening to Me, and how we made each other happy?
My Will alone contains the seed of happiness, which is formed when I teach It and the soul learns It. From these grow the plant and the fruit of a true everlasting and eternal happiness that never stops. And its not just only for us, but also for those who listen to or read the admirable and surprising things about my Will and feel the sweet enchantment of my happiness.
Therefore, in order to make myself happy in my works, I want to speak to you of the nobility of my Will, of where the soul can reach, and of what she can enclose if she lets my Will enter. The nobility of my Will is divine. It comes from Heaven. It does not descend unless It finds in one a noble court. The first one to let It enter was my Humanity. It is not content with just little. It wants everything because It wants to give everything. Yet how can It give everything if It does not find everything for Itself, so It can place all of Its goodness in it? So my Humanity gave It the holy and noble court. Then It centralized everything and everyone in Me.
For my Will to come and reign in the soul, she must enclose within herself all that my Humanity did. The other creatures have shared, in part, in the fruits of my Redemption, according to their dispositions. This creature will then concentrate all the others to form the noble court of my Will. Ultimately, my Will shall concentrate in the soul the love which It gives and wants to give to everyone so It, in turn, can receive the love of each and everyone.
It is not content with finding in her the return of her love alone. It wants the return of all. My Will wants to find in the soul in whom It wants to reign, all the relations which exist in creation between Creator and creature. Otherwise Its happiness would not be full, nor would It find all of Its things, or Itself. My Will must be able to say in the soul in whom It reigns: Here I find my happiness.
Regardless, if no one loved Me or returned My love to Me, I would still always be happy in Myself. No one can sadden my happiness, because in this Will of Mine I find everything, I receive everything, and I can give everything. I would repeat the sentence which is from the Three Divine Persons: We are intangible. No matter what the creatures might do, no one can touch Us, or even slightly cloud our eternal and immutable happiness. Only someone who possesses Our Will can touch Us lovingly, and become one with Us. This way, the creature would be happy from Our own happiness, and We would be glorified by the happiness of the creature.
Only when my Will fully reigns in the creature, will charity reach complete perfection in the creature. Then, by virtue of my Will, everyone will be found in every creature. They will be loved, defended and sustained, just as her Creator loves her, defends her and sustains her. Each one will be transfused in the other, as if inside ones own life. Then, all virtues will reach complete perfection, because they will not be nourished by human life, but by Divine Life.
For this I needed two humanities: my own, for the Redemption, and the other, a creature to form the Fiat Voluntas Tua, on earth as It is in Heaven. One was more necessary than the other. In the first one I was to come to redeem man. In the second I was to come to restore him to the only purpose for which he was created. The currents of grace between the human will and the Divine must be opened, making the Divine reign on earth as It does in Heaven.
In order to redeem man, my Humanity, let my Will reign on earth as It does in Heaven. Now I keep looking for another Humanity who will let It reign within itself on earth as It does in Heaven, allowing Me to accomplish all the designs of my creation. So, be attentive in letting my Will alone reign in you, and I will love you with the same love with which I loved my Most Holy Humanity.
I felt really depressed because of the absence of my adorable Jesus. Oh, how my heart bleeds. I feel subject to suffering continuous deaths! I felt I could not go on without Him, and that my martyrdom could not be any harder than that.
While I was trying to follow Jesus in the various mysteries of His Passion, I got to the point where I was accompanying Him in the mystery of His painful Scourging. At that moment, He moved inside me, filling me up with His adorable Person. Upon seeing Him, I wanted to tell Him about my difficult state.
But Jesus, imposing silence on me, told me: My daughter, let us pray together. There are certain sad times when my Justice is unable to contain Itself because of the evilness of creatures. Then It wants to flood the earth with new scourges. That's why prayer in my Will is so necessary. Extending out over everyone, it will be the defender of creatures. With its power, it will prevent my Justice from approaching the creature to strike her.
How beautiful and touching it was to hear Jesus pray! Given that I was accompanying Him in the sorrowful mystery of the Scourging, He appeared, bleeding profusely.
I heard Him say: My Father, I offer You this Blood of Mine. O please, let It cover the intelligence of every creature. Let It show them the vanity of all their evil thoughts. Let it dim the fire of their passions and make holy intelligence rise again. May this Blood cover their eyes and be a veil to their sight, so the taste of evil pleasures will not enter them through their eyes. May they not get dirty with the mud of the earth. May this Blood of Mine cover and fill their mouths, rendering their lips dead to blasphemies, cursing and all of their bad words. My Father, may this Blood of Mine cover their hands, and strike terror in man for his many evil actions. May this Blood circulate in Our Eternal Will covering and defending everyone. Let It be a defending weapon for the creature facing the rights of Our Justice.
But who can explain how Jesus prayed or what He said? He fell into silence, and inside me I felt as if Jesus was taking my poor little soul in His hands. He squeezed it and touched it up.
Then He looked at it, and I said to Him: My Love, what are you doing? Is there anything in me that displeases You?
He replied: I am working and expanding your soul in my Will. I dont have to tell you anything about what I do. Remember that you have given yourself to Me completely. You have lost your rights; rights which are already Mine. Do you know what your only right is? That my Will be yours, and that It provide you with all that can make you happy, both in time and in eternity.
Continuing in my usual state, my adorable Jesus transported me outside of myself, and told me:
My daughter, the Creator goes in search of the creature in order to place on her lap the goodness which He delivered in Creation. Throughout the ages, He has always arranged that there be souls who go in search of Him alone. He wants to place His goodness in those who search for Him and want to receive His gifts. So, the Creator moves from Heaven and the creature moves from the earth in order to meet each other: One, to give; the other, to receive.
I feel the full necessity giving. I prepare good things so I can give them. When I have no one to whom I can give them, I keep them inactive because of a lack of correspondence on the part of those who do not care about receiving them. This is always very pain painful.
Do you know where I can place the good things that came from Me in Creation? I put them in someone who makes my Will her own. It alone gives the capacity, the appreciation and a true disposition to receive the goodness of her Creator. He administers to her the return, the gratitude, the thanksgiving and love which the soul is obliged to give for the gifts that she has received with so much goodness.
So, come with Me, and lets go out and about together, throughout the earth and the heavens. I will place in you the love I delivered from Myself for love of the creatures in all created things so that you may give them back to Me in return. Love everyone with my Love together with Me and we will give Love to all. We will be a pair in loving everyone and I will no longer be alone. So we wandered everywhere, and Jesus placed in me His Love, which was contained in created things. Echoing His Love, I repeated with Him the "I love You" on the part of all creatures.
Then He added: My daughter, in creating man, I infused the soul in him with my breath. I wanted to infuse in him the most intimate part of Our interior. Our Will brought to him, all together, all the particles of Our Divinity. We gave man as much as a creature could contain, enough to make of him Our image.
However man, being ungrateful, wanted to break the union with Our Will, although he kept the soul. Then his human will, which took over the place of the Divine, infected and blinded him. He deactivated all the divine particles, disguising and dishonoring himself completely.
Now, since I want to dispose him again to receive this Will of Mine, it is necessary that I breathe on him again. My breath can put to flight darkness and infections and reactivate the infusion of Our Will which We made in creating him. Oh, how I wish to see his beauty restored, just as I had created him! My Will alone can work this great prodigy. This is why I want to breathe on you: so that you may receive this great good. My Will shall reign in you and give you back all the goodness and righteousness which It gave man in his creation.
Then, as He was saying this, He came nearer and breathed on me. He looked at me and squeezed me to Himself. Then He disappeared.
This morning my sweet Jesus made Himself seen in my interior in the act of stretching His arms in the shape of the cross, and I stretched out together with Him.
Then He said to me: My daughter, the last action of my Life was to lay Myself on the cross and to stay there until I died. With my arms spread out, I was unable to move or to resist what they wanted to do to Me. I was the true portrait, the true image of one who lives, not in the human will, but in the Divine. Being unable to move with so much tension on my arms, I had lost all rights over Myself. They said so many horrible things! Nevertheless, while I was losing my rights, others acquired my Life.
The first right was of the Supreme Will, which, using Its Immensity and All-seeing power, gathered all souls. It gathered innocent and penitent sinners, good and contrite wicked, placing them in my outstretched arms, so that I might bring them to Heaven. Since I refused no one, the Divine Will gave to everyone a place in my arms.
The Supreme Will is a continuous Act, which is never interrupted. What It does once, It never ceases. Although my Humanity is in Heaven and is not subject to suffering, I go in search of souls who act not in the human will, but in the Divine. I look for those who oppose nothing, souls who abandon each one of their rights, leaving them all at the mercy of my Will. Then my Will may continue Its Act of placing all souls, sinners and saints, innocent and evil, all in the arms of those who offer to lay themselves down in my Will. You will repeat and continue what my arms did, stretched out on the Cross. This is why I laid Myself down within you: so that the Supreme Will may continue Its Act of bringing everyone into my arms.
Sanctity is not formed of one single act, but of many acts united together. One single act forms neither sanctity nor perversity, because the continuation of acts is missing, the colors and the true shades of Sanctity are also missing. As these are missing, one cannot attribute a weight or a true value to either sanctity or perversity. Hence, what makes Sanctity shine forth and places the seal on It, are continuous good acts. No one can say he is rich because he possesses a coin, but only those who possess extensive properties, villas and palaces. Thats how it is with Sanctity.
Since sanctity needs many good acts, sacrifices and much heroism, it can also be subject to gaps or intervals. The Sanctity in my Will is not subject to intermittent phases. It comes to be associated with that continuous Act of the Eternal Will. It never, never ceases. It is always acting, always operating and always triumphant. It always loves and never stops. Thus, the Sanctity in my Will brings into the soul the mark of the works of her Creator: His continuous Love and the continuous preservation of all the things created by Him. It never changes and is immutable. Someone who is subject to change belongs to the earth, not to Heaven. Changing come from the human will, not the Divine. Creatures interrupts the good, not the Creator. All this would be unbefitting for the Sanctity of living in my Will because It is constant and contains the image and Sanctity of her Creator. So, pay attention. Leave all rights to the Supreme Will, and I will keep forming in you the Sanctity of living in my Will.
This morning, after much hardship, my always-adorable Jesus appeared inside me. He looked tired, like He wanted to rest. Since there was some kind of support in me, He extended His arms to cling to that support, and placing His head upon it, He rested. Not only did He rest, He invited me to rest with Him. How comfortable I was, leaning on that support together with Jesus, taking a little rest after so much bitterness!
Afterwards, He said to me: My daughter, do you want to know what this support is which gives us rest and so much relief? All the actions that you did in my Will formed this support for Me and for you. It is strong enough to sustain the weight of Heaven and earth, contained within Me, while giving Me rest. My Will alone contains this great strength and virtue. The acts done in my Will bind Heaven and earth enclosing in them the divine power, enough to sustain a God.
On hearing this, I said to Him: My Love, with all this support You are talking about, Im afraid You might leave me. What shall I do without You? You know how miserable and good for nothing I am. So Im afraid that, if You leave me, your Will too might depart from me.
And He: My daughter, why do you fear? This fear is your human will that wants to enter the field to take a little walk. My Will excludes every fear, because It has nothing to fear. On the contrary, It is sure of Itself and unshakable. My Will is linked to all created things and there is nothing over which It does not have Its dominion. Furthermore, you must know that as the soul decides to let herself be possessed by my Will and to live in It, the soul becomes linked to all created things in the same way. Being the daughter of my Will, which she possesses as her dwelling, as she performs her acts, they become inscribed on all created things with indelible characters.
Now, look at the whole Universe, the heavens, the stars and the sun. Look at everything and you will see your name, written with indelible characters, together with your connection as the daughter of my Will. How could it ever be possible that this Eternal and Divine Mother would ever leave Her dear daughter, who was born from Her and raised with so much love? So, unless you want to displease Me, banish every fear.
And while He was saying this, I looked at the heavens, into the sun and everything else, and I could see my name written with the title of Little Daughter of His Will. May everything be for the glory of God and to the confusion of the poor creature that I am.
Saturday, August 9, 1924
After waiting a long time for the presence of my adorable Jesus, I felt Him inside me, extending His arms.
He was saying to me: My daughter, extend your arms together with Me, in my Will. Make reparation for the many who lay their works in the human will, which forms for them the net of all evils that makes them fall into the eternal abyss. This way you can prevent my justice from pouring out upon them, venting its just fury. In fact, when the creature lays herself in my Will so she can work and suffer, my justice feels touched by the creature with the power of my Will, and it ceases its rigorous justice. Thenceforth a divine vein comes out, which the creature makes flow between God and the human family. When this happens, my justice cannot help having regard for poor humanity.
As He was saying this, He showed me how the creatures were preparing a great revolution, with their political parties, against the government and against the Church. What a horrible massacre I saw! How many tragedies there were!
Then, my sweet Jesus continued: Did you see it, My daughter? Creatures just do not want to stop it. Their greed for bloodshed has not yet been quenched in them. This will cause my justice to destroy entire cities by earthquakes, water and fire. Their inhabitants shall disappear from the face of the earth. To prevent this, you must pray, my daughter; suffer and work in my Will. This alone can serve as an embankment that will keep my justice from bursting out. Otherwise, its devastating thunderbolts will destroy the earth.
Oh, if you only knew what beautiful delight it is to see a soul operating in my Will! Imagine, as of old, father sea and mother earth. They so bind and link each other that water cannot be without earth and earth would not be fruitful without water. Its like they were married so that the sea can be called father, and the earth mother. Such should be the union of the soul with my Will.
What is in the sea? There is an immensity of water. Who inhabits these waters? Whom do these waters nourish? To whom do they give life? To the many species of fish, that feed themselves while swimming and darting about within the immense sea. Do you see, then? The sea is one, but many fish live in it. However, the love and the jealousy of the sea toward them are so great that it keeps them hidden within it. Its waters lie above and below, to the right and to the left. If the fish wants to swim, it slices through the waters and, darting here and there, it amuses itself. The water lets it slice through, but it presses itself around the fish, above and below it, and the fish never leaves it. It immediately closes up behind its way as the fish moves onward, leaving no trace of its passing or its destination, so that no one can follow it.
If the fish wants to be nourished, the water offers itself to feed it. If the fish wants to rest, it becomes its bed. Yet, it never leaves the sea, which always presses itself around the fish. However, in spite of this, one can see that in the sea there are beings, which are not the water itself. One can see the darting movements made by these mute inhabitants, whose life is in the water. They are the glory, the honor and richness of the sea.
More essential than the fish is the soul who works and lives in my Will. My Will is immense and the creature is finite. She too has her motions. She has a voice and her little walks. And as my Will sees her within Itself, Its love and jealousy are greater that of the sea. It lays Itself above and below her, to her right and to her left. It becomes the souls life, her food. It forms her every word, all her work and each step she takes. It becomes her suffering. It makes of Itself her bed, and even her rest. It is the dwelling place of this fortunate creature.
It follows her everywhere, eventually amusing Itself together with her. She is my glory, my honor and the richness that my Will produces. The soul working in my Will is swimming and the darting like the fish in the terrestrial sea. However, the soul does it in the celestial sea of my Supreme Volition. These souls are the hidden inhabitants of the celestial waves. They live bringing immense honor and merit to the infinite sea of my Will.
They are just like the fish, hidden, invisibly mute under the waves within the sea. The fish form the glory of the sea and serve as food for man. Thus do these souls seem to have vanished silently within the Divine Sea. Yet, they form the greatest glory of Creation, and are the primary cause for my letting descend upon earth the delicious food of my Will and my grace.
Another image of how the soul works in my Will, is the earth. The souls who live in my Will are the plants, the flowers, trees, and seeds. The earth opens with much love to receive the seed. Not only does it open, it splits, enveloping it, to help the seed to become dust like itself, so it can deliver more easily from its womb the plant, which that seed contains.
As it begins to come out of its womb, the earth presses itself around it, giving the seed the nutrients and moisture it contains so the seed can grow. An earthly mother cannot be as loving as mother earth. A mother does not always hold her newborn baby on her lap, nor does she constantly give him milk. Moreover, the earth, unlike a mother, never detaches the plant from its breast. Rather, the more the plant grows down from the top, the more the earth sinks underneath. It rips itself open to make space for the roots, making the plant grow more beautifully robust. Its love and its jealousy are so great that it keeps the plant attached to its breast, giving it continuous nourishment and life.
Flowers and the plants are the most beautiful ornaments on earth. They are its happiness, its richness and glory, and they provide food for human generations. My Will is more than mother earth. More than a tender mother, I hide in my Will the soul who works and lives in my Will. I help her to make the seed of her will die, that it may be reborn with Mine, and then I form my favorite plant. I nourish her with the celestial milk of my Divinity, and my jealousy is such that I keep her attached to my breast. My Will presses around her, so she may grow to be beautiful and strong, all to my Likeness.
So pay attention, my daughter. Always work in my Will, if you want to make your beloved Jesus content. I would like you to drop everything, and concentrate on this point alone: living and working constantly in my Will.
I was thinking to myself: I would like to always go around in His Divine Will. I would like to be like the dial of a clock which keeps going around without ever stopping.
But while I was thinking of this, my sweet Jesus moved inside me and told me: My daughter, do you want to always go around in my Will? Oh, how gladly and with what love do I want you to go around, always, in my Will! Your soul will be the dial. My Will shall wind you up to make you rotate fast, without ever stopping. Your intention will be the point of origin from which you want to start. Whatever way you want to go, whether in the past or in the present, or whether you want to delight along future paths, it is your own free choice. You will always be dear to Me, and you shall give Me the highest delight, whatever starting point you choose.
Then He added: Dearest daughter of my Will, the work of my Will contains the Creative Power. All that my Humanity did while on earth, since everything was done in the Supreme Volition, contains this Creative Power in everything. It is like the sun, which is always in action. It is always full of light and of heat, never increasing or decreasing in its full splendor, as it was created by God. Im the same way. Everything I ever did is all still in action. Just as the sun is for each and every one, my work, while being one, is for each and every one. Furthermore, my thought forms a crown for each and every created intelligence. My gazes, my words, my works, my steps, my heartbeats, my pains, all become a crown for the gazes, the words, the works and the pains of my creatures. Like a crown, I guard all that the creature does.
If the creature thinks in my Will, the crown of my thoughts opens and encloses her thoughts. Consequently, the creatures, taking part in the Creative Power, do before God and before all, the office of my intelligence. Just the same, whether you look, speak, think, pray or work in my Will, my gazes, my words, my thoughts, my prayers and my works form the place in which to receive all these actions of yours. Forming one single crown, they do the office of my gazes and of my words, and so forth with all the rest. The souls who live in my Will are my true replications. They are my inseparable images, portrayed within them and absorbed again in Me, so that everything they do may carry the seal that these are my works, as they continue my own office.
I was feeling very depressed, yet still completely abandoned in the arms of Jesus, and I prayed to Him to have compassion for me. However, while I was doing this, I felt like I was losing consciousness and I saw a little child come out from within me, looking weak, pale, and engrossed in profound sadness. Blessed Jesus, going to meet her, gathered her up in His arms and, moved to pity, pressed her to His heart.
He touched her forehead with His hands. He marked her eyes, her lips, her breast and the little childs limbs with signs of the cross. As He did this, the child regained strength, acquired color, and bestirred herself from her sadness. Jesus, seeing that the child was regaining strength, pressed her more tightly to Himself, to strengthen her even more.
He said to her: My poor little child, just look at you! Dont worry. Your Jesus will make it better.
While this was going on, I thought to myself; Who is this child who came out from me, whom Jesus loves so much?
My sweet Jesus answered me: My daughter, this child is your soul. It is you, and I love her so much that I cant bear seeing you so sad and weak. This is why I came: to infuse in you new life and new vigor.
On hearing this, crying, I said to Him: My Love and my Life, Jesus, Im so afraid Youll leave me! How can I do without You? How will I be able to live? It will be the ruin of my poor soul? Just thinking about You leaving kills me! It is a pain, which lacerates me, takes away my peace of mind and puts hell into my heart! Jesus, have pity, compassion, mercy on me, a little child! I have no one. If You leave, everything is over for me!
Jesus, continuing, added, My daughter, calm down. Dont be afraid; your Jesus wont leave you. Im jealous of your trust. I dont want you to distrust Me even the slightest bit. I really love souls who trust Me completely. I often hide some of their defects and imperfections or some lack of correspondence to my grace. I dont want to give them any occasion for not fully trusting Me. In fact, if the soul does lose her trust, she becomes separated from Me and all huddled up within herself. She becomes stuck at a painful distance from Me, paralyzed in her rush of love. She freezes at the thought of sacrificing herself for Me. Her own distrust brings her such great harm.
It is like the spring frost that arrests the growth of plants. If it is intense enough, the frost will often arrest the development of virtues as well, chilling even the most ardent love. My designs and greatest sanctities are often stopped because of lack of trust. I can tolerate some defects, since they will never be that harmful, but not distrust. So how could I leave you, after having worked so much within your soul? Take a look at how hard I had to work.
As He was saying this, He showed me a large sumptuous palace, worked by the hands of Jesus in the depth of my soul.
He continued: My daughter, how can I leave you? Take a look at how many rooms there are. Theres more than you could count, just like the many types of knowledge, effects, values and qualities in my Will! You need that many rooms to have enough space to put all these spiritual goods.
There is nothing left to do but to add some more shades of different colors to better portray the rare beauties of my Supreme Will. The will help give more prominence and honor to my work. How can you be afraid that I may leave such a great crafting of Mine? It would costs Me too much. My Will is involved in it; and wherever my Will is, there is Life, a Life not subject to death. Your concern is nothing but a bit of distrust on your part. So trust Me and we will get along, and I will accomplish the work of my Will.
As I was in my usual state, I found myself outside my body, and to my surprise, I found a woman, lying in the middle of a street. She had cuts and bruises all over and every limb was dislocated; not one bone was still in place. The woman was in such a sorry state. She looked like a true portrait pain, but was still somehow beautiful, noble, and even majestic. It was a pitiful sight, seeing her abandoned by everyone, exposed to anyone who might want to harm her.
Moved by compassion, I looked around to see if there was anyone who could help me to lift her up off the ground and carry her to some place safer. Just then there marvelously appeared at my side a young man who seemed to be Jesus. Together, we lifted her from the ground, but with every movement she winced from the harrowing pain of having all her bones dislocated. Slowly, little by little, we carried her into a palace and laid her upon a bed.
Together we took each dislocated joint in our hands to set them back in place. At Jesus touch, the bones went back in place and the woman was transformed into a beautiful, graceful child. Jesus seemed to love this woman so much that He would willingly give His Life to save her and restore her to health.
I was surprised by this, and Jesus said to me: My daughter, this woman is the image of my Church. She is noble, majestic and holy, because Her origin is from the Son of the Celestial Father. But just look at what a sorrowful state She has been reduced to by the members incorporated into Her! Unhappy to live as saints like She does, they brought Her out into the middle of the street, exposing Her to the cold, to mockery and blows. Her very children are like dislocated limbs living in the middle of the street, giving themselves over to all sorts of vices. The self-interested love that is predominant in them makes them blind, committing the ugliest evils. They live near Her just so they can strike Her and to say to Her, continuously: Be crucified, be crucified!
My Church is in such a sorrowful state! Those ministers, who should be defending Her, are Her most cruel executioners. Thus, for Her to be reborn, it will be necessary to destroy them and incorporate innocent members who have no self-interest. With these new members living like Her, She can return to being the beautiful, graceful child I made Her. Like a simple child without malice, She will grow strong and holy. Now the enemies must move into battle. This is how the infected members will be purged. And you must pray and suffer, so that everything may be for my glory.
I was feeling really upset, so I prayed that Jesus would have compassion for me and take my poor soul into His care.
I said to Him: O please, You could even take everyone away from me, just as long as You stay with me. You alone are enough for me. After so long, You should have made me content; especially since I have asked for nothing but You alone.
While this was happening, I was still in that state of night time immobility, from which the Confessor must free me by calling me to obedience in the morning, before celebrating Holy Mass. Now, while I was saying these and other things, my Jesus took my arm, as if He Himself wanted to free me, like my Confessor would. Oh, how happy I felt in seeing that my Jesus was doing that. I thought to myself: Finally, the hardest of my sacrifices is over!
Such vain and fleeting happiness! As Jesus took my arm, at that very moment He ran away, and I was left in my usual state, without being able to regain consciousness. Oh, how I cried! And I prayed that He would have compassion for me.
Then, after a few hours, my adorable Jesus came back, and seeing me crying and all embittered, said to me: My daughter, dont cry. Dont you trust your Jesus? Let Me do what I need to do, let Me do it. Dont take these things so lightly. Especially now that so many sad things are about to happen! My justice can no longer hold back its thunderbolts from striking out at the creatures. They are all about to break out, one against the other. When you hear about the evils of your brothers, you will feel remorse for your opposition to your usual sacrifice. You too have contributed toward pushing my justice to strike the creatures.
On hearing this, I said: My Jesus, dont let this ever happen. And I dont want to withdraw from your Will either. On the contrary, I beg You to free me from the ugliest of misfortunes, that of not doing your Most Holy Will. I do not ask You to free me from suffering; rather, feel free to increase it. The only thing I ask from You, the grace I desire from You, that is , of course, if You want it, is that you free me from the bother I give to the Confessor. This is too hard for me, and I feel like I dont have the strength to bear it. But only if it would please You; otherwise, give me more strength, but do not permit that your Most Holy Will be not fulfilled upon me.
Jesus, continuing to speak, added: My daughter, remember that I had asked of you a Yes in my Will, and you pronounced it with all your love. That Yes still exists and holds its prime place in my unending Will. Everything you do, think and say, is bound to that Yes. Nothing can escape It. My Will enjoys and has a feast in seeing the will of a creature living in my Will. I keep filling her with new graces, making all of your acts divine acts. This is the greatest portent that exists between Heaven and earth. It is my dearest objective. If that Yes were to be snatched from Me, I would feel like I was being torn from Myself and I would cry bitterly. May this never be!
Do you remember that when as you made this little protest, your Yes trembled with fright. At that trembling, the foundations of Heaven were shaken, trembling along with you. All the Saints and Angels and the whole sphere of Eternity looked on with horrified sorrow. Since my Will enwraps everyone and everything, they felt an Act of Divine Will being ripped from them. They felt the acts done by you as one thing with themselves; so they all felt that painful tearing. They all felt the same profound sorrow.
Frightened by Jesus words, I said: My Love, what are You saying? Is this possible, all this trouble? Your words make me die from the pain. O please, forgive me! Have mercy on me, who am so bad. Confirm my Yes by binding me more tightly to your Will. Even make me die rather than letting me go out of your Will.
And Jesus, again: Calm down, my daughter. As soon as you placed yourself again in my Will, all things regained their calm and started feasting anew. May your Yes continue its rapid rounds within the immensity of my Will. Ah, daughter, neither you nor those who direct you have known what it means to live in my Will. Thats why you dont appreciate it, leaving it as something of no importance. This is painful to Me. On the contrary, this is the what interests Me the most, and which should, more than anything else, interest everybody! But, alas, they are distracted by other things that are less pleasing or indifferent to Me. I would rather that which glorifies Me the most, giving them, while still on this earth, immense and eternal goodness, rendering them owners of the goodness my Will possesses.
My Will is one, and embraces all Eternity. By living in my Will and making It her own, the soul comes to take part in all the joys and goodness my Will contains. She becomes their owner, even though she does not feel all this joy and goodness while still on earth. However, by keeping them in deposit within her will by virtue of my Will done on earth, when she dies and finds herself up there in Heaven, she will feel all the joys and goodness that my Will delivered in Heaven while she was living on earth. Nothing will be taken away from her. Quite the reverse, it will be multiplied.
The saints enjoy my Will in Heaven because they live in It. It is always enjoyable to live in glory. On the other hand, the soul who lives in my Will on earth, suffers. It is not appropriate for her to have all that joy and goodness. That is reserved for her in Heaven in greater abundance because of the works she has done by her living in my Divine Will. Someone who lives in my Will on earth has so many immense riches in Heaven. All Eternity wanders around her, enriching her and making her happy. The Divine Will does not deprive her of anything It contains. She is Its daughter, Its very Will. It loves her so much that all Its joys are placed in common with her. So, pay attention, my daughter, and do not oppose the designs, which I made upon you.
I was thinking about the Holy Divine Will, and I was doing as much as I could to fuse myself in It. I tried to embrace everyone and bring to my God all their acts, as one single act owed to our Creator. While I was doing this, I saw the Heavens open, and the Sun come out. It wounded me with its rays, penetrating into the very depth of my soul. My soul, wounded by those rays, turned into another Sun, which spread its rays, wounding that Sun from which it had been wounded. I continued to do my acts for all in the Divine Will. Meanwhile, those acts were overwhelmed by these rays and transformed into divine acts. They spread over and through everyone, forming a net of light which put things in order between Creator and creature.
While I was enchanted with this sight, my adorable Jesus came out from within my interior, in the middle of this Sun.
He told me: My daughter, do you see how beautiful the Sun of my Will is? What marvelous power! As soon as the soul wants to fuse herself in It to embrace everyone, my Will, turning into Sun, wounds this soul and forms another Sun within her. As she performs her acts, they become rays, wounding the Sun of the Supreme Will. Overwhelming everyone within this light, she loves, glorifies and satisfies her Creator for all. Whats more, its not merely with human love, glory and satisfaction. Because the Sun of my Will has worked in her, it is with the Love and Glory of the Divine Will.
Now do you see what it means to do your acts in my Will? This is what it means to live in my Will: the Sun of my Will, transforming the human will into a Sun, acts in it as if in Its own center.
Afterwards, my sweet Jesus gathered all the books I wrote on His Divine Will. He stacked them all together and pressed them to His Heart. Then, with unspeakable tenderness, He said: I bless these writings from the heart. I bless every word. I bless the effects and the value they contain. These writings are a part of Myself.
Then He called the Angels, who prostrated themselves, faces to the ground, to pray. At the time, there were two priests present who were there to see the writings. Jesus instructed the Angels to touch their foreheads to impress in them the Holy Spirit. This would infuse light within them, so they could understand the goodness and truth contained in these writings. The Angels did that, and Jesus, blessing us all, disappeared.
I was thinking over what has been written on living in the Divine Volition, and I prayed to Jesus that He would give me more light. I needed further clarification on this blessed living in the Divine Will so I could explain it to those to whom I am obliged to do so.
My sweet Jesus told me: My daughter, unfortunately they are slow in understanding it. To live in my Will is to reign in It and with It, while to do my Will is to submit to my orders. The first state is to possess; the second is to receive a disposition, and execute commands. To live in my Will is to make my Will ones own, as ones own property, and to dispose of It accordingly. To do my Will is to take It into account as the Will of God, not as something of ones own, nor can one dispose of It as he wants. To live in my Will is to live with one single Will: That of God. It is the holiest, purest, most peaceful Will. Being the one single Will that reigns, there are no contrasts: everything is peaceful. Human passions tremble before this Supreme Will and would rather escape It. Seeing that Heaven and earth tremble before this Holy Will, they dont dare to even move, or oppose it in any way. The first step of living in the Divine Will, which allows a creature to receive Divine orders, is in the depth of the soul. Here grace moves her to empty herself of what is human: tendencies, passions, inclinations and other things.
On the other hand, to do my Will is to live with two wills. When I give orders to follow Mine, the creatures feel the weight of their own will, which shows the contrast. Even though they follow the orders of my Will with faithfulness, they feel the weight of their rebellious nature, of their passions and inclinations. Many Saints, although they may have reached the highest perfection, feel their own will waging war against them, keeping them oppressed. Many are forced to cry out: Who will free me from this body of death? What they mean is, from this will of mine, that wants an end to the good I want to do?
To live in my Will is to live as a son or daughter. To just do my Will would be called, in comparison, living as a servant. In the first case, what belongs to the Father belongs to the child. Whereas it is well known how servants are forced to make more sacrifices than sons do. They have to perform more tiring, humbler services in the heat or the cold, traveling on foot, doing their chores.
In fact, even though most beloved friends of Mine, my saints had to endure much to execute the orders of my Will? Instead, a son remains with his father, takes care of him, cheers him up with his kisses and caresses. He gives orders to the servants as if his father were ordering them. If he goes out, he doesnt walk, he travels in a coach. While the son possesses all that belongs to his father, the servants are only given a salary for the work they have done. They are free to serve their master or not as they please. But if they do not serve, they no longer have a right to receive any further compensation. On the other hand, nobody can remove the intimate relations that exist between father and son, by which the son possesses the goods of the father. No law, either celestial or terrestrial, can cancel these rights, just as it cannot unbind the relationship between father and son.
My daughter, living in my Will is the living that is closest to the blessed of Heaven. It is so distant from one who simply conforms to my Will and does It, faithfully executing Its orders, as Heaven is distant from the earth. It is as different as the ties between a father and his son and that of his servant or between a king and his subject. This is the gift I want to give in these sad, sad times. I want them to not only do my Will, but possess It. I am free to give whatever I want, when I want, and to whom I want. A master is free to say to his servant: Live in my house, eat, take what you want and command the others as if you were me. He can authorize this servant as his own son, and give him the right to possess his goods so that nobody can prevent him from possessing them. If a rich man can do this, then I certainly can.
This living in my Will is the greatest gift I can give to creatures. My Goodness wants to show more and more love toward creatures. Since I have already given them everything else, now I want to give them the gift of my Will, so that by possessing It, they may appreciate and love the great good they possess. But dont be surprised when you see that they do not understand. For that, they would have to dispose themselves toward the greatest of all sacrifices: that of not giving life, even in holy things, to their own will. Then would they feel in possession of Mine, and could touch with their own hands what it means to live in my Will. You, however, must be attentive. Do not be bothered by the difficulties they raise. Little by little I will make them understand living in my Will.
I continue: while I was writing the last entry, I saw my sweet Jesus with His mouth on my heart, feeding me the words I was writing. At the same time, I heard a horrible din from afar, as if people were beating each other, with roaring and fearsome clamor.
Turning to my Jesus, I said to Him: Jesus, my Love, whos making all that noise? They sound like furious demons. Whats the matter? What are they raging about?
And Jesus: My daughter, it really is them. They dont want you to write about my Will. Whenever they see you write such important truths on living in my Will, they suffer a double hell and torment the damned even more. They are so afraid that these writings on my Will might be published. They see that it will make them lose the kingdom on earth which they acquired when man withdrew from the Divine Will so could give free reign to his own human will. It was exactly then that the enemy acquired his kingdom on earth.
If my Will reigns upon earth, my enemy, on his own accord, will shut himself up into the deepest abysses. Thats why they wrestle with so much fury. They feel the power of my Will in these writings. The mere thought of them being published makes them fly into a rage. They will do everything they can to hamper a good so great. Dont pay any attention to them. You can learn from this to better appreciate my teachings.
And I: My Jesus, I feel in need of your all-powerful hand to write what You say about your Will. They keep asking me, How is it possible that no other creature ever lived in His Most Holy Will? In the face of all the difficulties they raise, I feel so annihilated that I wish I could disappear from the face of the earth, so that no one would see me ever again. But, against my will, I am forced to stay in order to fulfill your Holy Will.
And Jesus: My daughter, living in my Will brings with itself the loss of any right to ones own will. All rights belong to the Divine Will. If the soul does not lose all of her rights, she is not truly living in my Will. At best, she lives resigned to her conformity. In fact, living in my Will means more than doing her actions according to my Will. It also means that she must not allow, anywhere inside her, even one affection, thought, desire or breath in which my Will does not have Its place. Nor would my Will tolerate even one human affection of which It is not the Life.
It would feel disgusted in letting the soul live in my Will with her own affections, thoughts, and other things which a human will could have without the Divine.
Do you think its easy for a soul to willingly lose her rights? Oh, how difficult it is! There are souls who, when they reach the point of losing all rights over their own will, draw back and are content with conducting a life somewhere in the middle. Giving up her rights is the greatest sacrifice that a creature could ever do. Nevertheless, it is the one which disposes my Goodness to open the doors of my Will. I give her my divine rights in exchange for letting her live in It. So pay attention and never go out of the boundaries of my Will.
I felt so bitter because of the absence of my sweet Jesus. Oh, how much harder and more bitter my exile becomes, without the One who forms my life! I prayed to Him to have compassion for me, and not leave me at the mercy of myself. While I was saying this, my beloved Jesus appeared. He was squeezing my heart tightly with His hands, and then tying me all up with a little rope of light. I was tied so tightly that I couldnt make the slightest movement. Then He laid Himself down within me, and we suffered together.
In the meantime, I felt myself being transported outside my body, toward the vault of the Heavens, where I met the Celestial Father and the Holy Spirit. Jesus, who was with me, took his place between Them and sat me on His Fathers lap. He seemed to be waiting for me. He pressed me to His womb with so much love and identifying me with His Will, He showed me His power. The other two Divine Persons did the same, with Wisdom and Love. They communicated Themselves to me, One by One. Then, They all became One and I was infused all together with the Will of the Power of the Father, the Will of the Wisdom of the Son, and the Will of the Love of the Holy Spirit. But who could possible express what I felt being infused in my soul?
My adorable Jesus said to me: Daughter of Our Eternal Will, prostrate yourself before Our Supreme Majesty. In the name of all, with the Power of Our Will, with the Wisdom and with the Will of Our Supreme Love, offer your adoration, your homage and your praise. Do this and We will feel in you the Power of Our Will adoring Us, the Wisdom of Our Will glorifying Us and the Love of Our Will loving Us and praising Us.
The Power, the Wisdom and the Love of the Three Divine Persons are in communication with the intellect, the memory and the will of all creatures. We will feel your adoration, homage and praise flow within the intelligence of every creature. Rising up between Heaven and earth, they will make Us hear the echo of Our own Power, Wisdom and Love, adoring Us, praising Us and loving Us.
Greater adorations, more noble homage, love and praise more divine, she cannot give Us. No other act can equal these acts, or give Us as much glory and love. We see the Power, the Wisdom and the reciprocal Love of the Three Divine Persons flow within the act of the creature. We find Our own acts in the act of the creature. How could We not enjoy them and give them supremacy over all other acts.
I prostrated myself before the Supreme Majesty, adoring It, praising It and loving It in the name of all, with the Power I felt within me of their Will, Wisdom and Love. But who knows what the effects of this are? Since I have no words to express them, I will move on.
Afterwards, I received Holy Communion and began fusing myself in the Will of my Highest Good, Jesus. I was trying to find in It all of creation, so that no one might miss the roll-call. Then, together with me, everyone could prostrate themselves at the feet of my Jesus in the Sacrament, to adore Him, to love Him and to bless Him.
However, while I was doing this, I felt somehow distracted while trying to find all created things in His Divine Will. How can I, all by myself, give the love, the praises, and the adorations of everyone to my Jesus?
Jesus, seeing me all entangled up, gathered all of creation onto His lap and said to me: My daughter, I have placed all of creation on my lap so that it will be easier for you to find and call everyone together with you. Now everything that has come from Me can, through you, return to Me the love and adoration which befits Me, as things which belong to Me. I would not be completely happy with you if any of them were missing. I want to find everything in you, in my Will.
Then it became easier for me to find and call all of creation together with me, so that all might praise and love my Highest Good Jesus. How marvelous! Each created thing contained a distinct reflection and a special love of Jesus, and Jesus received the return of His reflections and of His own love. Jesus was so happy! Then, as I was doing this, I found myself back inside my body.
I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will, and my sweet Jesus, moving in my interior, told me: My daughter, how beautiful it is to see a soul fusing herself in my Will! As she fuses herself in It, the created heartbeat takes its place and life in the Uncreated Heartbeat, and forms a single one, running and beating together with the Uncreated Heartbeat. This is the greatest happiness of the human heart: to palpitate in the Eternal Heartbeat of its Creator. My Will makes it fly, and the human heartbeat flings itself into the center of its Creator.
Then I said to Him: Tell me, my Love, how many times does your Will go around through all creatures?
And Jesus: My daughter, within each heartbeat of a creature, my Will makes Its complete round through all of Creation. The creatures heart beats continuously, and if the heartbeat ceases, life ceases. To give Divine Life to all creatures, my Will, more so than a heartbeat, goes around and forms the Heartbeat of my Will in every heart. My Will is in every creature as her primary heartbeat, because her own is secondary. If I feel the heartbeat of any creature, it is by virtue of the heartbeat of my Will. Moreover, my Will forms two heartbeats in her: one for the human heart, as the life of the body, and one for the soul, as the heartbeat and life of the soul.
Do you want to know what this heartbeat of my Will does in the creature? If she thinks, my Will runs and circulates like blood in the veins of her soul, and gives her the Divine Thought. Then she can put aside the human thought and replace it with the word of my Will. Whether she works, or walks, or if she loves, my Wills wants to be the focus of her work, of her step and of her love. The jealous love of my Will in the creature is so great that, while It palpitates, if the creature thinks, It becomes thought. If she wants to look, It becomes the eye. If she wants to speak, It becomes word. If she wants to work, It becomes work. If she wants to walk, It becomes her feet. If she wants to love, It becomes fire.
It runs and wanders through the creatures every act taking the primary position due It. But to Our greatest sorrow, the creature denies It this place of honor, and gives way to her human will. My Will is forced to remain in the creature as if It had no thought, no eye, no word, no hands, no feet. Then It is unable to carry out the Life of my Will in the center of the soul of the creature. This summit of ingratitude is such great sorrow!
Do you want to know who gives Me free reign and lets my Will operate as the heartbeat of Life within her soul? It is the one who lives in my Will. Oh, how well does my Will carry out Its Life, becoming thought of her thought, eye of her eye, word of her mouth and the heartbeat of her heart! With the one who is living in my Will, how quickly we understand each other! Finally my Will obtains Its intent in forming Its Life in the soul of the creature!
My Will hold Its primary place, not only in the creature with reason, but in all created things. My Will, being like a heartbeat which, giving circulation to the life of the soul, runs to give life to all the acts of the creature from the tiniest created thing up to the greatest. None of them can move from the power and immensity of my Will.
It becomes the life of the blue heavens, maintaining their celestial color ever new and vivid. It cannot fade, change or turn pale, unless my Will wanted it to be so, and once it has been established, my Will does not change. My Will is the life of the light and of the heat of the sun. With Its heartbeat of life It preserves the equilibrium of its light and heat. It keeps the Sun ever alive and immobile in my Will, unable to move, to grow or to decrease in the good it must do to all the earth.
My Will is the life of the sea, and forms the murmuring of its waters, the darting of the fish and the roaring of the waves. My Will shows off the power It contains within Itself. It carries out Its Life with such great majesty and absolute dominion in the created things that the sea cannot do without murmuring, nor can the fish do without darting. Moreover, I could say that it is my Will to murmur in the sea, it is my Will to dart in the fish and it is my Will to form the waves. With Its roaring, It makes all creatures hear that Its Life is there present and can do anything It likes the best.
It is the heartbeat of life in the bird that warbles, in the cheeping of the chick, in the lamb that bleats and in the turtledove that moans. My Will is the life of plants that vegetate and the air that everyone breathes. My Will has Its Life in everything and, with Its power, It forms the Action It wants. It maintains harmony in all created things and forms in them the different effects, colors and the offices which each of them contains.
Do you know why? It is to make Myself known to the creature; to go to her, to court her, to love her with a different act of my Will for each thing I created for her. Moreover, My Love was not satisfied with placing in the depth of her soul my Will as the heartbeat of Life. It also wanted to place my Will in every created thing, so that my Will might never leave her either on the inside or the outside. All created things are an incitement, an example, a voice and a continuous call to her, to make her always run in the fulfillment of my Will, the only purpose for which she was created. This is so the creature with reason might be preserved and grow in the Sanctity of my own Will. But the creature becomes deaf to the many voices of creation, blind to the sight of so many examples; and if she opens her eyes, she fixes them on her own will. What sorrow! Henceforth, I recommend that you never go out of my Will, if you do not want to multiply my sorrow, and lose the purpose for which you were created.
Saturday, October 11, 1924
I felt really depressed by the absence of my sweet Jesus. There were so many fears stirring within my soul! But the one that tortured me the most was that my Jesus might no longer love me as before. In the meantime, I felt my shoulders being squeezed, and heard the voice of Jesus in my ear.
I heard it say to me: My daughter, why are you afraid that I might not love you? Ah, if you only knew of my love for all creatures in general, you would be surprised. I created the creature with so much love. I endowed her with so many senses. Each sense was a line of communication that I made between Me and her. Her thought was communication link between my Intelligence and hers. Her eye was a link between her light and Mine. Her speech was a channel of communication between her Fiat and Mine. Her heart, connected her love and Mine. Everything: her breath, her motion, her step, everything, everything was open for communication between Me and the creature.
I did even more than would a father, who, raising a son, prepares for him not only the house, the clothes, the food, and everything else that can make his son happy, but also gives virtue to the son. Finally he says to him: We will separate, sure, but from afar you will feel my life and I, yours. You will feel my thought and I, yours; you, my breathing, my heartbeat, and I, yours. So, we will be, at the same time, distant and close, separated and inseparable: you will feel my life, and I, yours.
What the terrestrial father cannot do for his son, because it is impossible for him, I, Celestial Father, did. After I Myself had prepared for him his residence in this world, this son of Mine came out to the light. The creature should know that I placed such bond between Me and him, that I was to feel his life in Me, and the creature, Mine. This is my Love in general and for all.
What should I tell you, then, of the special Love I had for you? Each suffering I sent you has been one more communication between Me and you. Each was one more adornment with which I embellished your soul. Each truth I manifested to you has been a particle of my qualities with which I adorned your soul with new beauties and filled it with new splendors. Each grace I gave you and each time I came to talk to you have been gifts that I poured out upon you. Virtually every time I came, I did nothing but multiply my communications in order to portray in you my various beauties. I show you my Likeness so you might live with Me in Heaven, and I might live with you on earth. After all this, you still have doubts about my Love? I say to you: care about loving Me, and I will take care of loving you ever more.
I was thinking of the great love with which Jesus loves us. My mind was wandering within the Eternal Love, and my sweet Jesus, moving in my interior, showed me spokes of light, before my mind. Within these spokes there was a sun with a light beam for every single existing creature. Each creature had a ray all for herself, giving her life, light, heat, strength, growth and everything else that is necessary to form a life. It was delightful to see how each creature was attached, like a branch to a vine, to each ray of this sun, from which she had been born.
While my mind was wandering through this scenario, my adorable Jesus said to me: My daughter, do you see how much love I have for the creature? Before coming out to the light of the day in this world, she was already in my womb. In delivering her, I did not leave her. A ray of light containing my Life follows her to administer to her everything that is necessary to develop this Life. I raise her with great care! I water her with so much love. I Myself become light, heat, food, defense for her. And when she finally ends her days in time, on course with that same ray, I withdraw her into my womb. Now I let her wander about through the Celestial Fatherland.
My Love for the creature is greater than the sun which I formed in the blue heavens. Moreover, the sun I created for the benefit of humanity is nothing other than the shadow of the true Sun. It is my ray which I communicate to the creature. The sun in the sky does not form the plants, nor does it give them water so they wont wither. It does not provide everything necessary for the plants to grow beautiful and strong.
Even blind men can enjoy the warmth of its light. It only performs its office of illuminating and warming, and then it moves on. If the plants are not watered, the sun can do nothing good for them; it just withers them up even more. On the other hand, I, who am the true Sun of the souls, do not leave them, either by day or night. I Myself form the souls. I give them the water of my grace so as not to let them wither. I nourish them with the light of my Truths. I strengthen them with my examples. I give them the gentle wind of my caresses to purify them, the dew of my charisms to embellish them and the arrows of my Love to warm them. There is nothing I do not do for them. I am everything for them, and I place my whole Life at the creatures disposal, for her own good.
But creatures are so ungrateful! They seem to be attached like branches to my vine, not out of love, but by force, because they cannot do without Me. They grow like branches that do not get much sap from the vine. They grow thin, without ever forming mature grapes, just unripe ones that, to my divine taste, are bitter. Ah, if everyone would only reflect on how much I love their souls, they would all be taken by the powerful attraction of my Love, and would love Me! So, love me, and may your love expand so much as to love Me for all.
I am going through bitter days because of the absence of my sweet Jesus. Oh, how I miss His adorable Presence! Even the memory of His sweet words, wounds my poor heart, and I say to myself: Where is He now? Which way did He go? Where can I find Him? Ah, everything is over, Ill never see Him again! Ill never hear His voice again!
We will no longer pray together! How hard is my destiny! What torture! What pain! Ah, Jesus, how You have changed! You have run away from me! However, even though far away, on the wings of your Will, wherever You are, I send You my love and kisses. I send You my cry of sorrow: Come, come back to your poor little exile, the newborn who cannot live without You!
While I was saying these and other things, my adorable Jesus moved inside me, and extending His arms, He squeezed me very tightly.
I said to Him: My Life, my Jesus, I cant take it anymore. Help me, give me strength, dont leave me anymore. Take me with You! I want to come!
And Jesus, interrupting me, said: Dont you want to do my Will, My daughter?
And I: Certainly, I want to do your Will, but your Will is also in Heaven. I have done It on earth until now, from now on I want to come with You and do It in Heaven. So, hurry, take me, don.t leave me anymore. I cant take it anymore! Have pity on me!
And Jesus, again: My daughter, you dont know what my Will on earth is. This shows that, after so many lessons of mine, you still havent understood It very well. You ought to know by now. The soul who lets my Will live within her, here forms a sweet enchantment to the divine pupils, as she prays, as she suffers, as she works and as she loves. She encloses with her acts, the gaze of God in that enchantment. The Omnipotent One, taken by the sweetness of this enchantment, feels disarmed of many of the chastisements drawn upon the creatures by their grave sins.
This enchantment has the virtue of preventing my justice from pouring out, with all its fury, upon the face of the earth. My justice too remains enchanted by my Will operating in the creature. It is not trivial that the Creator sees His Divine Will operating in the creatures still living upon earth. It is triumphant and rules with the same freedom with which It operates and rules in Heaven.
This enchantment in Heaven, however, is the opposite, because my Will dominates in Its Kingdom as if in Its own house. The enchantment is formed within Myself, not outside of Me. Thus it is I; it is my Will, that enchants all the blessed with an enrapturing power. To be eternally beatified, their pupils are enclosed in my enchantment. They do not form the sweet enchantment for Me, but I for them. So my pupils are free, and are not charmed.
On the other hand, my Will, living in the creatures crossing through their exile, is operative and rules in the house of the creature, which is even more amazing. This is why she becomes for Me a more pleasing enchantment, which charms Me and holds such attraction for my gaze. She captivates Me. My pupils are fixated upon her, without being able to move. Ah, you do not know how necessary this enchantment is during these times, when so many evils will come!
The peoples will be forced to eat one another. They will be taken by a fierce rage, one against the other. But the leaders are the guiltiest of all. Poor people! They have real slaughterers, devils incarnate as leaders, who only want to slaughter their brothers. If the evils were not grave, your Jesus would not leave you deprived of Him. You fear that it may be for other things that I deprive you of Me. No, be reassured. It is my justice that, depriving you of Me, wants to punish creatures. You, however, never go out of my Will, so that Its sweet enchantment may spare the peoples worse evils.
I feel I cannot entrust my sorrowful secrets to the pen, nor express on paper what I feel within my martyred heart. Ah, yes, there is no martyrdom which can compare to the martyrdom of being deprived of my sweet Jesus! The martyr is wounded and killed in his body, while the martyrdom of His absence wounds the soul, it lacerates her in her most intimate fibers.
What is worse, is that it kills her without making her die, hammering her continuously on the iron anvil of pain and of love. I wont write anything about the pains I feel inside me because these are things which I cannot say. Just like the poorest beggar, I would like to beg everyone: the Angels, the Saints, my dear Queen Mother and the whole of creation, for a word, a little prayer to Jesus for me. If everyone prayed for me, He might be moved to compassion for the little daughter of His Will, and let her return from the hard exile in which I find myself.
Then, I thought about what had just passed through my mind. It seemed like I my Angel was with me, instead of Jesus. I said to myself: Why the Angel and not Jesus?
At that moment I felt Him moving inside, saying to me: My daughter, do you want to know why the Angels are like they are? Because they kept themselves beautiful and pure, just as they came out of my hands. They are still the same as they were at that first act when they were created. Still being in that prime act of their existence, they remain in that single Act of my Will. It does not know succession of actions, does not change or decrease or increase, and contains within Itself all possible imaginable goods. The Angels, maintaining themselves in that single Act of my Will through which I delivered them to the light, remain immutable, beautiful and pure. They have lost nothing of their primary existence, and all their happiness is in willingly maintaining themselves in that single Act of my Will. They find everything in the circuit of my Will. They do not want, in order to be happy, anything other than what my Will administers to them.
Do you know why there are different choirs of Angels, one superior to the other? There are some which are closer to my Throne. Do you know why? Because my Will manifested Itself in Its Act to some with one single extension of knowledge and qualities, to some with two, to some with three, to some with four; and so on, up to nine choirs. With each addition of the Act my Will manifested, some became superior to others. The first ones, more than the others, became more able and worthy to be close to my Throne. Therefore, the more my Will manifests Itself in them, if they remain in It, the more they are raised, embellished, made happy and superior to others. See, then, how everything is in my Will? The different Choirs of Angels and the whole celestial Hierarchy, with their distinct beauties and different offices come from the greater or lesser knowledge of the divine science of my Supreme Will. It is the ability of the Angels to maintain themselves in that same Will from which they came, without ever leaving.
If you knew what it means to have a greater knowledge of my Will, you would better appreciate the different types of knowledge which I have manifested to you about my Will! The office, the beauty, the superiority of each creature depends on the level at which the creature is constituted. To advance it is essential to maintain oneself and do one more act in that Will of Mine which is known. Ever more knowledge about my Will raises the soul to such sublime height, that the very Angels remain stupefied and enraptured, and they profess Me, incessantly: Holy, Holy, Holy.
My Will manifests Itself and calls things out from nothing, forming beings. It manifests and embellishes Itself. It manifests Itself and raises one higher. It manifests Itself and expands the Divine Life in the creature. It manifests Itself and forms in her new and unheard-of portents. Thus, from the many things I manifested to you about my Will, you can understand what I want to do with you and how much I love you. Perhaps now you can appreciate how your life must be a chain of continuous acts done in my Will.
If only the creature were more like the Angel, never leaving that prime Act through which my Will delivered her to the light. You would see a new order with great portents upon the earth. My Will created you in your original state, so never leave it, my daughter, and may your prime act be always my Will.
After this, in my thoughts, I placed myself near my Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemani. I prayed to Him to let me penetrate into all that Love He gave me.
Then my Jesus, moving again in the depth of my interior, told me: My daughter, enter into my Love, and never leave It. Run after It, or stop in my own Love to comprehend full well how much I loved the creature. Everything in Me is Love toward her. In creating this creature, the Divinity intended to love her always. In everything, both inside and outside of her, It was to run toward her with a continuous and incessant new act of Love. An Act of Eternal Love runs through every thought, gaze, word, breath or heartbeat.
The Divinity intended to love this creature, always and in everything. Thats because It wanted to receive, in everything, the return of the new and incessant love of the creature. It wanted to give love in order to receive love. It wanted to love to be loved in return. But it was not to be. The creature did not want to keep up this back and forth of love or respond to the echo of the love of her Creator. She rejected this Love, she denied It, and offended It. At this affront, the Divinity did not stop, but continued Its new and incessant love toward the creature. Since the creature refused to take it, the Divinity filled Heaven and earth with it instead, waiting for someone who would take this Love, so It could receive Love in return. In fact, once God has decided and proposed something, no adversity can change his mind. He remains unassailable in His Immutability.
I, Word of the Father, came upon earth with another excess of my love. Taking on my Humanity, I gathered within Myself all the Love that filled Heaven and earth. I came to return this Love to the Divinity, including all It had given and was to give to the creatures. I constitute Myself the love of each thought, each gaze, each word, every heartbeat, movement and step of each and every creature.
Thus my Humanity was worked by the hands of the Eternal Love of my Celestial Father, down to Its tiniest fibers. He gave Me the capacity to enclose all the love the Divinity wanted to give the creatures. He gave my Humanity the love of all, and made Me the love of the creatures every action. So, each one of your thoughts is crowned by incessant acts of love. There is nothing, inside or outside you that is not surrounded by my repeated acts of love.
In this Garden my Humanity moans, pants, agonizes and feels crushed under the weight of so much love because I love and I am not loved in return. The pains of love are so cruel and bitter. They are pains without pity, more painful than my very Passion! Oh, if they only loved Me, the weight of so much love would become light! When It is returned, Love is quenched and satisfied within the love of the one who loves. However, when It is not returned, It becomes deliriously crazy. It feels the same Love It unleashed being returned as an act of death. See then, how much more bitter and painful was the Passion of my Love? I suffered only one death in the Passion. In the Passion of Love, the ungrateful creatures made Me suffer a death for every act of love that came from Me and was not returned.
So come, my daughter. Return to Me all the Love in my Will, and you will find all this Love in Action. Make It your own, and together with Me, transform yourself into the love of each creatures act. Return to Me everyones love.
I continue feeling deprived of my Jesus with an intense bitterness in my poor soul. Even if He does makes Himself seen in passing within my interior, He is cold and distant. However, in spite of His silence, I am content, thinking that He has not left me and still dwells within me. Just when my poor soul is about to wither, the sight of Him gives me a taste for Life, and like a beneficial dew, makes me flourish again. But for what? Just to return again to wither, hoping for death? I feel stuck somewhere between life and death.
Then, while I was swimming in this immense sea of the pain from having lost Him, my sweet Jesus moved inside me where I could see Him praying, so I united myself to Him in prayer
Then He said to me: My daughter, in creating man, in order to preserve his life, I formed around him the air of the body and the air of the soul. The natural air is for the body, the air of my Will for the soul. Do you think that it is only this natural air that has the virtue of giving man respiration, and strength, nourishment, freshness and natural vegetation? Even though it cannot be seen, this air has everything in its power, and becomes the life of every created being.
In fact, everyone feels the need for air. The air follows its course everywhere, night and day. It enters into the heartbeat of blood circulating everywhere. Do you know why it contains so much virtue? Its because God placed in the air the entire substance of goodness. It produces nourishment, respiration and vegetative power. So many seeds, enclosing so much good, float in the air, carried by the wind.
Just as air was needed for the preservation of all nature, air was also needed for the preservation of the spiritual nature, that is, every soul. My Goodness did not want to entrust or indirectly create another form air for the soul. My Will Itself wanted to become air for the soul. With all the substantial goodness It contains, It can penetrate into the depth of the soul, like invisible air that invades everything. It will bring her the divine nourishment, the vegetation, the respiratory virtue of all that is from on high, the invincible strength, the fruitfulness of all virtues and of every good.
There should be a contest: the body breathing the natural air, and the soul breathing the air of my Will. Its enough to make you cry! If men feel the natural air lacking, they get it, with a lot of effort, by going up to the high mountains. They express sorrow at the lack of air; they eagerly yearn for it. On the other hand, they dont give one thought or feel any sorrow for the air of my Will, even though, despite themselves, they are soaked in the air of my Will. So this soothing and sanctifying air, unloved and rejected by creatures, cannot place in the soul the goodness It contains. It is forced to stay there, sacrificed, unable to carry out the Life It contains.
Hence, my daughter, I recommend to you, if you want my Will to fulfill Its designs within you, always breathe the air of my Will. As you breathe it, the Divine Life will live in you and lead you to the true purpose for which you were created.
I was thinking about the immutability of God and the mutability of creatures. What a difference! While I was thinking about this, my always benign Jesus moved inside me.
He said to me: My daughter, look: there is not a single point in which my Being is not present. I have no place to oscillate, either to the right, or to the left, or behind. There is not one void which is not filled with Me. Not finding one point in which I am not present, my firmness feels unshakable. This is my Eternal Immutability. This immense Immutability renders Me immutable in pleasures. What I like today, I always like. I am immutable in loving, immutable in ruling and in desiring. Once I have loved, enjoyed or desired something, there is no danger that I might ever change. In order to change, I would need to restrict my Immensity, which I cannot do, nor do I want it. My Immutability is the most beautiful halo which crowns my head, extends under my feet, and pays eternal homage to my Immutable Sanctity. Tell me: is there perhaps even one point in which you do not find Me?
As He was saying this, the divine Immutability made itself present before my mind. But who can say what I understood? I fear I may say something nonsensical, so I will move forward. In speaking, then, about the mutability of the creature, He expressed Himself in this way: Poor creature! How tiny is her little place! As tiny as it is, her place is not even stable and fixed. Today she is at one point; tomorrow she is thrown onto another. This is also the reason for which today she loves or she likes one person, one object, one place; tomorrow she changes and maybe even despises what yesterday she liked and loved. But do you know what makes the poor human creature so changeable? Her human will renders her fickle in love, in pleasures and in the good she does. The human will is like an impetuous wind which moves the creature at every gust, like an empty reed, now to the right, now to the left. This is why, in creating her, I wanted her to live of my Will, so that, arresting this impetuous wind of the human will, It might make her firm in goodness, stable in love and holy in work. I wanted to let her live in the immense territory of my Immutability. But the creature was not content. She wanted her own little place, and so became the amusement of herself, of others, and of her own passions. This is why I pray, I supplicate the creature to take this Will of Mine, to make It her own, so that she may return to that immutable Will from which she came, so that she may no longer be fickle, but stable and firm. I have not changed: I wait for her, I long for her, I want her always in my Will.
I felt as bitter as could be, and as I was praying, I cried over my hard destiny of being deprived of the One who formed my whole life. My situation is hopeless. No one has pity on me; everything is about justice. But then, who could be moved to compassion for me, if the One who is the source of compassion, denies it to me? As I was crying and crying, I felt my hands being grabbed by the hands of Jesus.
Raising me up high, He said: Come one, come all, to see a scene so great and never seen before, either in Heaven or on earth: a soul dying continuously out of pure love for Me.
At these words of Jesus, the Heavens opened up and the whole Celestial Hierarchy looked at me. I too looked at myself, and I saw my poor soul withered and dying, like a flower bending over its own stem. However, while I was dying, a secret virtue gave me life. Alas! Maybe this is the punishing justice of God that is justly punishing me. My God! My Jesus, have pity on me! Pity a poor wretch who is dying! I have the hardest destiny of all poor mortals: to die without being able to die! So, my sweet Jesus held me in His arms for almost the whole night, to give me strength and to assist me in my agony. I thought that He would finally have compassion for me and would bring me with Him; but in vain!
After He cheered me up quite a bit, He left me, saying: My daughter, my Will suffers continuous death on the part of creatures. It is Life, and as Life, It wants to give the life of light. Nevertheless, the creature rejects this light. And because she does not receive It, this Light dies for the creature, and my Will feels the pain of the death that the creature has given to this Light.
My Will wants to make known the qualities and the virtues It contains, but the creature rejects this knowledge. Consequently for the creature, my Will dies to this knowledge and to the qualities and the virtues that my Will contains. My Will feels the pain of the death that the creature has given to the virtues and the qualities of my Will as well. In the same way, if It wants to give love and it is not received, It feels the death given that love. If It wants to give sanctity and grace, It feels as if It is receiving death from the creature for the sanctity and the grace It wants to give. Hence, It feels as if the good It wants to give is suffering continuous death. Dont you feel, within yourself, the continuous death that my Will suffers? By living in It, you are naturally forced to take part in these deaths that my Will suffers, and to live in a state of continuous agony.
On hearing this, I said: Jesus, my Love, it doesnt feel like that to me. It is your absence thats killing me, that takes life away from me without making me die.
And Jesus: The deprivation of Me on one side, my Will on the other, which, keeping you absorbed in Itself, makes you share in Its pains. My daughter, true living in my Will implies this: there is not one pain that my Will receives from the creatures, which It does not share with the soul who lives in It.
I was thinking about and reflecting on the Immaculate Conception of my dear Sovereign Queen Mother. The qualities, the beauties and the prodigies of Her Immaculate Conception were pouring into my mind. It is a prodigy that surpasses all other prodigies made by God in creation.
While I was thinking this, I said to myself: Great is the prodigy of the Immaculate Conception. However my dear Celestial Mother had no trial during her Conception. Everything was favorable for Her, both on the part of God and on the part of Her nature, created by God, so happy, so holy and so privileged. So, what were Her heroism and Her trial?
The Angel was not exempted from the test, nor was Adam in Eden. Was the queen of all the only one to be exempted? Did She deserve that most beautiful halo which a trial would have placed on Her august head as Queen and Mother of the Son of God?
While I was thinking about this, my adorable Jesus, moving inside me, told me: My daughter, no one can be acceptable to Me without the test. Had there been no test, I would have had a slave mother, not someone who is free. However, slavery does not enter into Our relations nor Our works, nor can it share in Our free love. My dear Mother started Her first trials from the very first moment of Her conception. As soon as She performed Her first act of reason, She knew Her human will was on one side, and the Divine Will on the other. She remained free to adhere to either of those two wills. Furthermore without missing a beat and knowing all the intensity of the sacrifice She was making, She gave Us Her will, without ever wanting to know it again. For this, We gave Her Ours as a gift. This donation of wills was exchanged on both sides. In to it poured all the qualities, the beauties, the prodigies and the immense seas of grace of the Immaculate Conception of the most privileged of all creatures. I am used to always testing the will. Anything not directed to Me from the human will is nauseating. I wouldnt even glance at them, not any sacrifice, not even death. This beautiful creature was so holy and heroic that absolutely no one will ever be able to equal Her. She was the greatest prodigy We have ever worked. This beautiful creature was so holy and heroic that absolutely no one will ever be able to equal Her. She began Her life with Our Will, and with Our Will She continued it and fulfilled it. You could say that She fulfilled it from the moment She started it, and that She started it there where She fulfilled it.
Our greatest prodigy was that in each one of Her thoughts, words, breaths, heartbeats, movements and steps, Our Will poured out upon Her. She offered Us the heroism of a divine and eternal thought, word, breath and heartbeat, operating within Her. This raised Her so high that what We were by nature, She was by grace. All of Her other qualities, Her privileges, Her very Immaculate Conception, would have been nothing compared to this greatest of all prodigies. This is what confirmed Her and made Her stable and strong all of Her life: my continuous Will, pouring upon Her, made Her share in the Divine Nature. Her continuous receiving of It, made Her strong in love, strong in sorrow and different from everyone else.
In this Will of Ours operating in Her, She drew the Word down upon the earth. She drew down the seed of the Divine Fruitfulness, to conceive a Man and God without human intervention. Our Will made Her worthy to be the Mother of Her own Creator.
I keep insisting on this topic of my Will because my Will preserves the beauty of the soul, just as she came out of Our hands, and raises her as the original copy of her Creator. No matter how many great works and sacrifices one may do, if my Will is not in them, I refuse them, I do not recognize them because it is not food for Me. Even the most beautiful works, without my Will, become food for the human will, for self-esteem, and for the greed of the creature.
My days are ever more sorrowful. I am under the cruel press of the hard privation of my sweet Jesus, which is upon me like a deadly sword, killing me continuously. Right when it is in the act of inflicting the final blow, ending it all, it stops, suspended just above my head. I await the merciful coup de grace that will let me go to my Jesus; but I wait in vain! I feel my poor soul, along with my nature, being consumed and dissolved. Ah, because of my great sins, I do not deserve to die! What pain! What a long agony! O please, my Jesus, have pity on me! You alone know my harrowing state. Do not abandon me; do not leave me at the mercy of myself!
Now, while I was in this state, I felt I was outside of my body, within a most pure light. In this light, I could see our dear Queen Mother and the Little Baby Jesus inside Her virginal womb. O God! My adorable Little Baby was in such a sorrowful state! His little humanity was immobilized. His little feet and hands were frozen, without the slightest movement. There was no space, either to open His eyes, or to breathe freely. His immobility was such that He seemed to be dead, but He was alive.
I was thinking to myself: Who knows how much my Jesus suffers in this state! How much His dear beloved Mother must suffer, in seeing Baby Jesus completely immobilized within Her own womb!
Now, while I was thinking of this, my Little Baby, sobbing, said to me: My daughter, the pains I suffered in this virginal womb of my dear Mother are incomprehensible to the human mind. Do you know what was the first pain I suffered in the first act of my Conception, which lasted for my whole life? The pain of death. My Divinity descended from Heaven fully happy, untouched by pain or death. When I saw my little Humanity being subject to pain and death for the love of creatures, I felt the pain of death so vividly, that I really thought I would die of pure pain. However, the power of my Divinity sustained Me with a prodigy, enabling Me to feel the pain of death as well as the continuation of life.
So, for Me it was always death. I felt the death of sin, the death of goodness within creatures, as well as their natural death. What cruel torment this was for Me, for my entire Life! I, who contained Life and who was the absolute Lord of Life itself, had to subject Myself to the pain of death. Dont you see my little Humanity motionless, dying in the womb of my dear Mother? Dont you yourself feel how hard and excruciating is the pain of the sensation of dying, without dying? My daughter, it is your living in my Will that makes you share in this continuous death on my Humanity.
I spent the rest of the morning so close to my Jesus, inside the womb of my dear Mother. I saw that, as He was in the act of dying, He kept regaining life, only to abandon Himself to death again. What pain, to see Baby Jesus in that state!
That night, I thought about the act in which the sweet Little Baby came out of the maternal womb, to be born into our midst. My poor mind wandered within this mystery, so profound and full of love. Then my sweet Jesus, moving inside me, stretched out His little hands to embrace me.
He said to me: My daughter, the act of my birth was the most solemn act of all creation. Heaven and earth felt plunged into the most profound adoration, at the sight of my little Humanity, which kept my Divinity enclosed within walls, well protected. At my birth, there was an act of deep silence, profound adoration and prayer. My dear Mother prayed, enraptured by the power of the prodigy which was coming out from Her. Saint Joseph prayed; the Angels prayed, and the whole of creation felt the strength of the love of my Creative Power being renewed upon itself. All felt honored to receive true honor, for the One who had created them was going to use them for everything needed by His Humanity. The sun felt honored to give Its light and heat to its Creator, recognizing the One who had created it, its true Lord. It held a feast and gave Him honor by giving Him its light. The earth felt honored when it felt Me lying in a manger. It felt touched by my tender limbs, and rejoiced with gladness and prodigious signs. All creation, all created beings, saw their true king and Lord within their midst. Feeling thus honored, each one wanted to perform its office for Me. The water wanted to quench my thirst. The birds, with their trills and warblings, wanted to cheer Me. The wind wanted to caress Me. The air wanted to kiss Me. Each one wanted to pay Me its innocent tribute.
All felt something unusual within themselves, a joy, a strong power. Only men were ungrateful for this. They were reluctant, and stifling it all, they were unmoved. Even though I called them with tears, with moans and sobs, except for a few shepherds, they did not move. Yet, it was for man that I was coming upon earth! I was coming to give Myself to him, to save him, and to bring him back to my Celestial Fatherland. I was all eyes, looking to see if he would come before Me to receive the great gift of my Divine and human Life. Thus, in the Incarnation I placed Myself at the mercy of the creature. In the Incarnation I placed Myself at the mercy of my dear Mother. When I was born, I gave the gift of my Life to Saint Joseph.
Because my works are eternal and are not subject to end, this Divinity, this Word who descended upon earth, never withdrew from the earth. Thus He had the opportunity to give Himself constantly to all creatures.
As long as I lived, I gave Myself, unveiled. Then, a few hours before dying, I made the great prodigy of leaving Myself in the Sacrament, so that, whoever wanted Me, could receive the great Gift of my Life. I paid no attention either to the offenses they would give to Me, nor to their refusal to receive Me. I said to Myself: I have given Myself; I do not want to withdraw, ever again. Let them do to Me whatever they want; I will always belong to them, and be at their disposal.
Daughter, this is the nature of true Love. This is what it means to work as God. Be firm, and not to withdraw no matter the cost or sacrifice. This firmness in my work is my glorious victory. This is the sign of creature who works for God: firmness. The soul looks no one in the face. She does not acknowledge pain. She pays no attention to herself, or to self-esteem, or to creatures. Even though it may cost her own life, she looks only at God, for love of Whom she set herself to work. She feels victorious in offering the sacrifice of her life for love of Him.
Not being firm is characteristic of human nature and of the human way of working. Not being firm is the work of the passions, and results in more passion. Uncertainty is weakness, it is cowardice, and it is not the nature of true love. Hence, firmness must be the guide in working for Me. So, in my works I never change: whatever the events may be, when a work is done once, it is done forever.
At the end of a full day, I was thinking to myself: What else is left for me to do?
From inside me, I heard: You still have to do whats most important; fusing yourself in the Divine Will.
As usual, I started to fuse all my poor being in the Supreme Will. As I was doing so, it seemed to me that the Heavens were opening. I went to meet the whole Celestial Court, and all of Heaven came toward me.
Then my sweet Jesus told me: My daughter, fusing yourself in my Will is the most solemn act of all. It is the greatest, most important act in your whole life. To fuse yourself in my Will is to enter the sphere of Eternity, embrace It, kiss It, and receive that goodness which the Eternal Will contains. Moreover, as the soul fuses herself in the Supreme Volition, all go to meet her, to communicate to her all the goodness and glory they have. The Angels, the Saints, and even the Divinity, they all commune with her, knowing that they communicate in that same Will where everything is safe. Most importantly, in receiving all this goodness, the soul multiplies it through her actions in the Divine Will, and gives back double glory and honor to the whole of Heaven. Thus, by fusing yourself in my Will, you put Heaven and earth in motion. It is a new feast for everyone in Heaven.
To fuse oneself in my Will is to love and to give, for each one and for all, without excluding anyone, the goodness of all. In my Goodness, so as not to be won over in love by the creature, I place in her, as she is in my Will, all the possible spiritual goods I contain within Me. Nor can there be a lack of space in which to place all the goods, because my Will is immense, and is capable of receiving everything. If you knew what you do and what happens when you fuse yourself in my Will, you would eagerly yearn to do it continuously.
Afterwards, I was thinking about whether I had to write what is written above, or not. I didnt see it as necessary, or as anything important. Anyhow, obedience had given me no order to do it.
Then my sweet Jesus, moving inside me, told me: My daughter, how can it not be important to make it known that fusing oneself in my Will is to live in It? The soul who fuses herself in my Will receives, for safe keeping, all my divine and eternal goods. Even Saints themselves compete with each other to place their merits in the soul fused in my Will. They feel in her the Power and the Glory of my Will, and feel glorified in a divine way by the littleness of the creature.
Listen, my daughter: to live in my Will surpasses even martyrdom in merit. Martyrdom kills the body, but living in my Will implies that the creature kills her own will with a divine hand. It gives her the nobility of a divine martyrdom. Every time the soul decides to live in my Will, my Volition prepares the blow that kills the human will, forming the noble martyrdom of the soul. However, to reach this happy state, the human will and the Divine Will must be tied together. One has to give way to the Other, and the human will must be content being extinguished by the power of the Divine Will. Hence, every time you dispose yourself to live in my Volition, you dispose yourself to undergo the martyrdom of your will.
Do you see, then, what it means to fuse oneself in my Will? It is to be the martyr of my Supreme Will continuously. And you think its trivial, or not important?
My life continues in the midst of bitterness because of the absence of my sweet Jesus. I dont know how I can live. Im in a nightmare that crushes me. Seeing itself deprived of the One who, alone, used to sustain it, my own nature wanted to dissolve. Sometimes I feel my bones being dislocated, at other times my stomach would close, refusing food and water. My poor human nature, without Jesus, wants to lean over and dissolve! However, just as it is about to melt, a powerful force, like a strong hand, squeezes me, resets my dislocated bones, opens my stomach, and prevents my total destruction. O God! What pain! Have pity on my hard destiny! My God, let the One who gave me life come back to me, or let my poor nature pay You the tribute of dying in You. Let my poor soul arise, into the womb of my Jesus, where we will never again be apart.
I was in this state of disintegration, suffering so much hardship for who knows how long, when finally, my sweet Jesus appeared inside me. He was seated in the middle of my interior, aloof, with His hand on His forehead. He looked thoughtful, remote, and lonely. And even though He was in my interior, there was so much space within me that I was far away from Him, and He, from me. I was alone and Jesus was alone. Whatever the cost, I wanted to approach Him, say a word to Him, and keep Him company in His loneliness.
Then, I dont know how, but that space became smaller. It seemed to me that this space was the world, and Jesus was at the center of it. Jesus seemed to be concerned about the destiny of the world, which runs hastily toward its own ruin. Then Jesus took a single point of that space and placed it upon me. I felt crushed under its weight, but I was happy that my Jesus, my Life, was close to me.
Seeing Him near me, I wanted to cry, so He would be moved to pity by my tormented state of mind. I wanted to tell Him so many things.
But, no; I just said to Him: Jesus, dont leave me anymore, dont you see that without you I cannot last in this exile?
He, all Goodness, replied: I do not leave you, no, not ever. Do you want to give to your Jesus a bad reputation? I never leave anyone. I never left you! The creatures withdraw from Me, not I from them. Quite the contrary, I go after them. So, dont ever insult Me like that again. After all, didnt you notice that I was inside of you, not outside of you; and not only Myself, but the whole world as well?
Then, looking at Jesus, I could see His intelligence, more brilliant than a sun, and all the thoughts of Jesus coming out of Him like the rays that come from the sun. These extended out, going through all the thoughts of His creatures, past, present and future. These rays were moving out, grabbing for all created intelligence, as though He were in their power. He was substitute them with other thoughts as perennial Glory to the Father. This was complete reparation for everything, and a beseeching for all good things on behalf of all created intelligence.
Then, drawing me to Himself, Jesus said to me: My daughter, this Sun you see within the intelligence of my Humanity, was formed by my Divinity. It endowed Me with Creative Power that sees all things, so that I became the new Sun of all souls.
The sun, which I created for the good of nature, covers all the earth with its light. It does not deny anyone the effects of its light, without Its ever moving from the heavens. It unleashes, from its center, the rays which bring upon earth all the goodness that the sun contains. In just the same way, without ever departing from Me, with Its inaccessible light, my Divinity formed in Me these spokes of Light.
These rays went through everyone and everything. Hence, in every instant, I went through each thought, word and act of every creature. Doing so, through these rays, I became perennial Glory to my Father for each thought, word and action of all human generations. While rising to the Celestial Father, this light descended to grab, as though in its power, all human acts, in order to illuminate them, warm them and repair them. Thus, a light hangs over each human act, wanting to do good to it, continuously. Doing this was natural for Me. You, my daughter, do not have this power to make one single act out of all acts, as I did. Therefore, in my Will, you will through each one of my rays, one by one, and little by little, you will follow the same path as my Humanity.
So I tried to go through the first ray, then through the second, and so on with the others. Such power in the Divine Will! While going through those rays, I felt so little that I seemed to have become an atom. And this atom was now in the Divine Intelligence, going through the intelligence of every creature. Then it was in the Word, or in the Divine Motion, going through the all words and the movements of His creatures. And so it continued.
The Divinity, seeing my extreme littleness within Their Intelligence, in Their Word and in Their Motion, taken by love for my littleness, was enraptured.
Pleased, It said: This littleness enraptures Us. Seeing it enter Our own acts and do them together with Us, diffusing them upon all, We feel such joy. It is with satisfaction that We receive Our own Glory. With all Our love We give it the freedom to enter into Us and let it operate together with Us.
In hearing this, I felt all confused, and I said to myself: I am doing nothing; it is the Divine Will that carries me in Its arms. All the Glory is of His Adorable Will.
While I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will, I thought to myself: Before, when I used to fuse myself in the Holy Supreme Volition, Jesus was with me, and I entered into It together with Him; therefore entering was a reality. But now I dont see Him, so I dont know whether I am really entering the Eternal Volition or not. Beginning the act of entering the Divine Will, I feel like someone who is reciting a little lesson, learnt by heart, as if these words of entrance were just a manner of speaking.
Now, as I was thinking of this, my adorable Jesus moved inside me, took my hand in His own and pushed me up high.
He told me: My daughter, you must know that, whether you see Me or not, every time you fuse yourself in my Will, from within your interior, I take you by the hand and push you up high. At the same time, from Heaven, I pull you up by your other hand into Our midst, within Our interminable Will. You are then held by both hands, in my arms.
You must know that all the acts done in Our Will enter into the prime Act when We created all beings. One is the Will which gives Life to these acts. The acts of the creature, in kissing Ours, diffuse in all created things, just as Our Will is diffused everywhere. They become the return of love, continuous adoration and glory for all that We have delivered in Creation. Only that which is done in Our Will begins, together with Us, gives Us the return of perennial love and adoration in a divine manner. This is glory that never ends.
The love We feel for all the things We created is so great that We did not allow them to go out of Our Will. They all remained with Us, just as We created them, and Our Will became the preservation and nourishment of the whole of creation. All things remain forever new, fresh and beautiful. Nothing substantial increases or decreases in of any of them. They were all created perfect by Us, and therefore not subject to any kind of alteration. They all conserve their origin, letting themselves be nourished and preserved by Our Will, and remaining around Us to sing Our glory. But, miserably, the creature of reason does not do so, when, by sin, she separates from Our Will.
Now, the work of the creature in Our Will enters into Our works, and Our Will becomes nourishment, preservation and the Act underlying every action of the creature. These acts done in Our Will by the creature, array themselves around Us, and transfused in all created things, sing our perpetual glory.
How different is Our Work, and the Love with which We operate, from that of the creature! In Us, Our love for the work We do is so great that We do not allow it to go outside of Ourselves. Thus, it will lose nothing of the beauty with which it was made. On the other hand, if the creature of reason does a good work, or even one virtuous act, she is unable to keep it with herself. Often, she doesnt know what happened to her work, whether it got dirty, or whether they reduced it to a rag. This is a sign of how little she loves her own works. The prime Divine Will from Which she took origin is her foundation. However, since the creature, because of sin, went out from It, she lost true love toward God, toward herself, and toward her works.
I wanted man to be in my Will by his own will, not by force, because I loved him more than all other created things. I wanted him to be like a king in the midst of my works. But man, being ungrateful, wanted to go out from his origin. Therefore, he was transformed and lost his freshness and beauty, and was subject to alterations and continuous changes. As much as I call him to return into his origin, he plays deaf, pretending not to hear Me. But my love is such that I keep waiting for him, and I continue to call him.
This morning, my sweet Jesus appeared and He was suffering so much that my poor soul felt consumed with compassion. All of His limbs were dislocated, with deep wounds that were so inflamed that Jesus moaned and writhed from the bitterness of the pain. He came close to me, like he wanted me to share His pain. Just by looking at Him, I felt His pains being reflected in me.
Jesus, all goodness, said to me: My daughter, I cant take it anymore. Touch my inflamed wounds and soothe them. Place your kiss of love upon them, so that your love may mitigate the spasms I feel. This state of mine, as painful as can be, is the true portrait of how my Will feels in the midst of creatures. It is in their midst, but separated from them, because, they do their will, not Mine. Hence, My Will becomes dislocated and wounded by the creatures. So, unite your will to Mine, and give relief to my dislocation.
I hugged Him and kissed the wounds to soothe His pain. Oh, how bitter they were because of the many supposedly holy works, that do not have their origin in the Will of God. I squeezed them between my hands, and Jesus let me do everything. He liked it so much that I did the same with the other wounds, while He stayed with me for almost the whole morning.
Finally, before leaving me, He told me: My daughter, you soothed Me so much that now I can feel my bones back in place. Do you know who can soothe Me and reunite my dislocated bones? It is the one who lets my Will reign within herself. When the soul puts her will completely aside, giving it not even one act of life, my Will acts as the master in that soul. It reigns, It commands and It rules. It is as if It were in Its own home, my Celestial Fatherland, and being at home, I act as the master of the house. I do what I want with what is my own. Since this is my dwelling, I can place in it whatever I want, make of it what I want, receiving the greatest honor and glory that the creature can give Me.
On the other hand, someone who wants to do her own will acts as the master. She orders, she commands, and my Will remains like a poor stranger, neglected and sometimes even despised. I want to give Myself, but I cannot, because the human will does not want to give way for Me. Even in holy things it wants to be the leader, thereby excluding Me. I feel so uncomfortable being in the soul who makes her own will reign!
It is like a father who goes to visit one of his sons who is far away, or a friend who goes to see another friend. As he knocks, the door opens, but he is received with coldness and is left there in the first room. No one prepares lunch for him or a bed for him rest. He is not allowed to share in the joys of the house, nor does anyone confided in him about its problems. How insulting! What sorrow for this father, or friend! So, if he has brought valuable gifts to please him, he does not feel like leaving them, and he goes away, pierced to the depth of his heart.
The opposite occurs in a soul who lets my Will reign within her. Imagine here a most beloved son who, upon hearing someone knocking, opens his door and sees his father, for whom he has longed. He embraces him, kisses him, introduces him, and puts the whole house in a festive mood. He has the best meal prepared for him, and the softest of beds. He even gives him full lordship over the whole house, and well as over himself. Imagine the same with a friend toward a friend, most beloved, for whom he greatly longs.
This is the honor, love and deference of a son toward his own father. This is the true affection and esteem of someone passionate toward his best friend. In this case, all the treasures that the father has brought for his son, all the gifts that someone has brought for his faithful friend, will not be withheld. All will be poured onto the lap of the son by the father who was so graciously welcomed. They will be poured lovingly by someone onto the lap of his dear friend, from whom, with so much affection, he was received and well treated.
Such is my Will: It comes from Heaven to dwell within souls. Blessed is the soul who welcomes It and lets It reign. Miserable are the many others who do not want to welcome It, and do not want It to reign in them, leaving It outside like a destitute stranger. But my Will does not leave, even though they treat Me like a stranger. I remain in their midst, waiting to give them my goodness, my grace and my Sanctity.
I was abandoning myself completely in the Most Holy Will of God, and in this total and full abandonment I felt within me a new heaven, a divine air which infused new life in me. Then my always adorable Jesus, moving inside me, stretched out His arms toward me, to take me in and hide me within Himself. He placed me under this new heaven of His Will which had formed in me, by His grace. With great contentment, I breathed the sweet, fragrant ointment of His Most Holy Will.
Taken by amazement, I said: My Love, my Jesus! The heaven of your Will is so beautiful! How enjoyable is to be under It! Its celestial air is oh, so clean and refreshing!
And Jesus, pressing me more tightly to Himself, told me: Daughter of my Will, each act in my Will is a new heaven which extends above the head of the soul, one more beautiful than the other. The air of these heavens is divine, and brings Sanctity, Love, Fortitude, and contains all flavors together. This is how one can sense the sweet, balsamic air. My Will in Heaven confirms, beatifies, brings happiness, and penetrates everywhere. It transforms and divinizes everything within Itself.
It operates in the soul who possesses these new heavens of my Will on earth. As It operates, It delights in extending new heavens. My Will works and operates more in the pilgrim soul than in the Celestial Jerusalem. Up there, the works of the Saints are complete. There is nothing left to do. While here, my Will always has something to do in the soul in whom It reigns. This is why It wants everything for Itself, and does not want to leave even one act to her human will. It wants to do much, and for every act It were to leave to the human will, It would fail to extend one more heaven, and it would be one work less for It. Ah, you do not know what happens in the soul when she gives my Will all the freedom to operate within her.
Imagine a sea. Sometimes the waves rise up so powerful and high that their power carries the fish up so high that they can be seen within those waves. They are lifted by the power of the storm, which draws them out from the depths of the sea, their ordinary dwelling, raising them up together with the waves.
The waves overwhelm them, and the fish are not able to resist their power. Without the power of the storms waves, they dont know how to leave their usual harbor. If the sea had limitless power, it could make all the water overflow from its boundaries, forming gigantic waves. Then the fish, overwhelmed by them, would all come out.
But what the sea cannot do, because it is limited in its power, my Will does. As It makes the acts of the soul Its own, by operating in her, It forms Its eternal waves within her and wth these waves It overwhelms everything. In these waves, one can see all that my Humanity did, the works of my dear Celestial Mother, those of all saints, and everything that the very Divinity did. Everything is placed in motion. My Will is more powerful than the sea. Our works and those of the saints can be symbolized by the fish which live in the sea.
When my Will operates, both inside and outside the soul, everything which is contained in It, moves. Rising, all her works rearrange themselves in order to repeat for Us glory, love and adoration. They pass before Us, as though on parade, saying to Us: We are your works. Great and powerful You are, because You made us so beautiful.
My Will encloses all that is beautiful and good. When It operates, It leaves nothing behind, so that not one act may be missing of all that is Ours. Then Our glory is complete. There is nothing surprising here, because this is the Eternal Work to be carried out in the soul. The Work of Our Will is an eternal wave which overwhelms both Heaven and earth as though they were one single point. Then It diffuses Itself over all, as the bearer of a Divine Act which contains all Divine Acts within Itself. The Heavens delight when they see the Eternal Will operate in the soul! Their works are confirmed in the Divine Will, they see their works flow in that Divine Act, and they feel their glory, happiness and joys, being redoubled.
You are the Little Daughter of my Supreme Volition, and I recommend that in each one of your acts, you abandon yourself as prey to the eternal waves of my Will. As these waves reach the foot of Our throne in Heaven, We will confirm you more and more as the true daughter of Our Will. We will then grant you the concession of grace for your brothers and Our children.
I was thinking about the Holy Divine Will, and praying to my adorable Jesus that, by His goodness, He would give me the grace to fulfill His Most Holy Will in everything.
I said to Him: You who love and desire that your Will be done, help me, assist me, and feed me your Will every moment, so that nothing else may have life in me.
While I was praying, my sweet Jesus moved in my interior, and gave me a big hug.
He told me: My daughter, how my Heart is wounded by the prayer of one who seeks only my Will! I hear the echo of my prayer, as I did when I was upon earth. All my prayers were focused on one single point, that the Will of my Father be perfectly fulfilled, both in Me and in all creatures. This was the greatest honor for Me and for the Celestial Father: to do His Most Holy Will in everything.
By doing the Will of the Eternal One, always and in everything, my Humanity opened the ways between the human will and the Divine, which had been closed by the creature through sin. You must know that, in creating man, the Divinity formed many channels of communication between the Creator and the creature. The three powers of the soul are such channels. Intelligence is a channel for comprehending my Will. Memory is a channel for remembering It continuously. The will, in the middle of these two channels, forms the third channel, enabling the soul to fly into the Will of her Creator. Intelligence and memory were the support, the defense and the strength of the channel of the will, so that it might not stagger, either to the right or to the left.
One channel is the eye, which allows her to look at the beauties and the riches contained in my Will. Hearing is a channel, which lets her hear the calls and the harmonies contained in It. The word is the channel that enables her to receive the continuous outpouring of my word FIAT, and the goodness which my FIAT contains. The hands serve as a channel, so that man, in raising them while working, might reach, in my Will, the purpose of unifying his works with the works of his Creator. The feet are another channel used to follow the steps of my Will. The heart, desires and affections are all channels to be filled with the Love of my Will, so she may rest in It. See, then, how many channels there are in the creature that open the way to come into my Will, if she wanted to.
All channels were opened between God and man, and by virtue of Our Will, everything of Ours were his. This is only just, because he was Our son, Our image, a work which came from Our hands, and from the ardent breath of Our womb. But the human will, rebellious, did not want to enjoy the possession of the goodness We gave it. Not wanting to do Our Will, man, instead, did his own. By doing his will, he put bars and gates in these channels, thereby constraining himself within the miserable circle of his own will. He lost Ours and went wandering in the exile of his passions, of his weaknesses, under a darkened sky loaded with thunderstorms. Poor child, in the midst of so many evils brought on by himself! Thus, every act of human will is a bar that he places before Mine. He builds a gate that prevents the union of our wills and interrupts the flow goodness between Heaven and earth.
With infinite Love and tender compassion for man, my Humanity, by doing the Will of my Father in everything, kept these channels intact. It prayed for the removal of barriers and the destruction of any gates that the human will had erected. It reopened these channels for whomever wants to come into my Will and returned to him those rights which We gave man when We created him.
Established paths are needed to facilitate the journey. These are the routes open for man to make frequent little visits to his Celestial Fatherland. Knowing how beautiful his Fatherland is, and how happy one can live in It, he loves It and yearns to take possession of It, thus living unattached to his own exile down here. These channels in the creature are necessary so that, very often, she may rise to her true Fatherland, she may know It and love It. If the soul loves her Celestial Fatherland, if in placing herself on the way within Our Will, she makes her little visits; this is a sign that the soul is walking along these paths. This is also a sign for you.
Do you remember how many times you took the way to Heaven and penetrated into the Celestial regions? As you made your little visit, my Will soon made you descend back into exile. Since you loved the Fatherland, your exile seemed ugly and almost unbearable to you. This love for the Fatherland, the bitterness you felt in living in exile, was a sure sign that the Fatherland is yours.
Its the same way with the low things of this world. If someone has a large estate, he makes a path so he can go visit it regularly, to enjoy it and take the good things that are in it. While visiting it, he loves it and keeps it in his heart. On the other hand, if he does not make a path, he never visits this possession, because without a path it is almost impenetrable. He doesnt even think of it, and never speaks of it. This is a sign that he doesnt love it, and that he despises his own property. Even though it could make him wealthy, because of his ill will, he is poor and lives in squalid misery. So here is my Wisdom in creating man. I wanted to create paths between Me and him, to make sanctity easier for him. I wanted to make it easier to communicate Our goodness, better enabling his entrance into the Celestial Fatherland.
I was feeling very bitter because of the absence of my sweet Jesus. Oh, how I miss my past! His adorable presence used to make my poor existence so happy! Even in the midst of the worst pain, my poor bed was a little Paradise for me. I felt like a queen together with my adorable Jesus. I was in complete control of myself, and through continuous contact with Him I even felt as though I were dominatrix of His Divine Heart. Now my happiness is gone! Every time I search for Him without finding Him, unhappiness surrounds me. It tears a part of my life away from me, because Jesus alone is my Life, and I feel more vividly the pain of my hard exile.
Oh, how true it is that it is not pain and suffering that makes the creature unhappy, but rather, the good which is wanted and is not found! I cried out to Him: Have pity on me! Come, rise within my poor soul, which is immersed in the bitter waters of your absence! Just then, I felt my beloved Good, my sweet Life, move inside me, extending His arms around my neck.
He said to me: My Daughter! My Daughter!
I looked at Him as He came out from a surface of light. As Jesus extended His arms, the Light extended with Him. However, that light was not completely full, you could see a void within it. But in spite of this, there was no darkness in that sort of void. It just seemed that more threads of light were needed to fill that void, to make it stronger, brighter and more intense. At the sight of my Jesus, I felt myself rising again from death to life. His words, My Daughter! My Daughter!, changed my unhappiness in one single act, because is impossible to be unhappy while with Jesus. At worst, one can be with Jesus while suffering even the most atrocious pain, but unhappy; never. It seems that, if there is any unhappiness within the soul, it flees from the presence of Jesus, giving way for the happiness He brings with Him, even in suffering.
Continuing, He said to me: Courage, My daughter, dont be afraid. There is no darkness in you, only sin is darkness, while good is light. You saw that I came out from a surface of light, from within you. Do you know what this light is? It is all the interior work that you do. Every additional action you take is one more thread of your will that you bind to the current of the Eternal Light. Then that thread turns into Light. So, the more actions you take, each one adding another thread, the more full, intense and radiant the Light will become. So, the Light you see is what you have done. The void you see in that same Light is what is left for you to do. I will always be in the midst of this light, not only to enjoy it, but to bind the threads of the human will with the current of the Eternal Light. I am the origin, the surface, the current, of the light.
Do you know what true light is? True Light is the Truth. The truth, known, embraced, loved and put into practice by the soul, is the true Light. It transforms her into that very Light, and continuously places, inside and outside of her, the birth of new Light. This Truth forms the true Life of God within the soul, because God is Truth and the soul is bound to the Truth. Moreover, she possesses It. God is Light, and she is bound to the Light, and is nourished with Light and with Truth.
However, while I nourish the soul with Truth and Light, she must keep the current of her will open to receive the current of divine communication. Otherwise it may be like an electric current without enough power to emit light. In fact it cannot emit anything if there is nothing prepared to receive it.
On top of that, not everyone receives the same light; it depends on how many light bulbs they have. Those who have one, receive one light; those who have ten, receive light for ten. If the bulbs contain more electric filaments, the lamps are filled with more light. If they have fewer filaments, however much room there is in the glass, the light is still small. And even if the current is stronger, the lamps will not receive it, if not in proportion to the capacity of the bulbs to receive the current. It takes the celestial current that is given, as well as the human current capable of receiving it. It increases according to how many more acts you do in my Will, adding more filaments to make more the light I want to enclose in you more complete.
I was saying to myself: How I wish I could cover all the paths of the Eternal Will. I wish I were able to find all the acts of this Supreme Will, emanating from It for the good of all the human family. Then I could place an act of my will on each act of His Will to return Him with my love, with my gratitude, with my thank You, for me, and in the name of all my brothers! But how can I find all these acts of the Divine Will, I, who am so little, so insignificant?
While I was thinking it, desiring to embrace, to place one kiss, or at least one I love You, on every act of the Supreme Will, I felt my sweet Jesus move inside me. A light within my mind was saying to me: My daughter, do you want to go through all the acts of my Will, which came from It for the good of all creatures? Come with Me into my Humanity. I want it, I long for you to do it. My Humanity covered all the paths of the Eternal Will. For all the acts I found, done for the good of all my brothers, I emitted my own, to thank the Divine Will for Its many acts, done for the good of human generations. This was a legitimate act, appropriate for Me to do, for the singular honor of my Celestial Father. As I was doing this, I left my acts in the Divine Will Itself. There they remain, always in the act of giving to my Divine Father this legitimate honor which creatures do not give Him. This forces the Eternal Will to make peace with the human will. The will of the creature is the deposit of all her thoughts, of the good and of the evil she does. It is the depository of everything, and it lets nothing escape which it does not deposit within itself.
My Humanity had two wills, the human and the Divine. Everything I did, I placed in the Divine, not only to find all the acts done by the Supreme Will and give compensation to It, but to do more new acts of Divine Will. This was to form in It, with all the work of my Humanity, a new Creation. These I placed within It, so that It might maintain it whole, ever new and beautiful, without increasing or decreasing, since It will never diminish. Just as in the Creation of the heavens, of the sun, of the stars, and everything else created by the Divinity for the good of all the human family, all was placed in Our Supreme Will. There It will preserve them always in that state in which We created them. In fact It does, the same way I entrusted all the work of my Humanity to the Divine Will. Everything I ever did will always be in the act of giving itself to creatures. My work involves more than a just a new heaven, sun and stars.
It is just like the sun on your horizon which, giving itself to each one, does not refuse to give light to all. Even though the sun wants to give all of itself, the human eye does not take in the full immensity of its light because the circumference of the eye is small. The eye can take in a little more light though, depending on how good and sharp its sight is. This is how the new Creation of my actions, all done in the Divine Will and installed there to redeem and restore the creature, are in the act of giving themselves to everyone. Even more than the sun, the stars and heaven, they extend over the heads of all, so that everyone may take in the great goodness they contain.
Hence, there is a great difference between the sun which shines in the blue sky and the one contained in the blue heaven of my Humanity. In the first case, as much as the eye strives to look and be filled with light, its circumference does not expand, it always stays the same size. However, the eye of the soul, the more it strives to look, to cooperate, to know and love all that my Humanity has done, becomes larger. It takes in more light, comprehends more, and receives more goodness. It is within its power to become richer or poorer, filled with more light and heat or colder and filled with darkness.
If you want to cover the paths of the Eternal Will, enter through the door of my Humanity. In It you will find my Divinity. The Divine Will shall make present to you, as though in the act, all that It did, does and ever will do, both in Creation and in Redemption and Sanctification. You will have the contentment of being able to kiss those actions and to place in each one of them your little act of love, of adoration, of gratitude. There, you will find my actions, all of them in the act of giving themselves to you. You will love them, and will take the gifts of your Celestial Father. There are no gifts greater than these He will give you: the fruits and the effects of His Will. However you will only receive them according to how much you cooperate, letting your will live dissolved within Mine.
Hence, for a little while I felt completely immersed in my Jesus, and I found in Him, in the act, all the works of the Divine Will for the benefit of creatures. I tried to follow, one by one, the actions of the Supreme Will; but while I was doing this, everything disappeared. The delirium of wanting to find my sweet Jesus again made me fidget. Then, after much hardship, I felt Him behind my shoulders, putting His arms around me and taking my hands in His. I pulled Him in front of me violently.
With all the bitterness of my soul, I said to Him: You dont love me anymore, Jesus.
Immediately, not giving me time to say anything else, He told me: My daughter, what is it?! To Me, you say: You dont love me any more? These words can be said to creatures, but not to your Jesus, to the One who can never fail in Love.
While He was saying this, He stared deep inside me, as though He was trying to find something in me that interested Him very much. He looked and looked over and over again. Finally, I felt another Jesus come out from within my interior, identical with the One outside. I was surprised to see that my Jesus was both inside me and outside of me.
He, all goodness, told me: Tell me, my daughter, who formed this new Life in you? Is it not Love? Are they not my loving chains, that not only formed Me within you, but keep Me bound and clinging to you? In order that this Life of Mine might always grow within you, I placed in you my Eternal Will. As It becomes one with yours, we nourish ourselves together with the same celestial food, making my Life one with yours. And despite all this, you say: You dont love me anymore?
I was confused, and I didnt know what to say.
I was fusing myself completely in the Holy Divine Will, but while I was doing this, I felt all the bitterness of the absence of my sweet Jesus. I am almost used to suffering from His absence by now. However, every time I am without Him, my pain is renewed. It seems to me that every time I am deprived of the Life of my life, Jesus increases pain to a new level, and I feel even more vividly the pain of His absence. Oh, how true it is that in Jesus both pains and joys are always new!
While I was abandoning myself in His Will, my adorable Jesus, from within my interior, extended His hand outside of me, all filled with light. He held my hand and it became so identified with His that you could barely see that, instead of just one, there were two hands transformed together.
Jesus, sympathizing with my extreme littleness, told me: My daughter, the Light of my Will is transformed together with your will and forms one single Life. The Light becomes Life, and the Heat which the Light contains empties and consumes everything that could prevent identification with my Life, forming one single Life in Me.
Why do you stress so much? Dont you feel this Life of Mine within you? Not in the fantastic sense, but in real life? How often do you feel my Life operating within you and sometimes suffering? And how often do I fill you so much with Myself that you are left without the ability to move, or even breath. At times, do not your mental faculties, and even your very nature disappear to make room for Mine? Then, I am forced to restrict Myself within you so that you can live again, so that you can regain natural motion and the use of your senses. But I always remain inside of you. Dont you notice that every time you see Me, I come out from within deep inside you so that you can see Me? So, why are you afraid that I might leave you, even though you feel this Life of Mine within you?
And I: Ah, my Jesus, its true that I feel in me another Life which operates, suffers, moves, breathes and lays Itself down within me. It occurs so much that Im incapable of explaining whats happening to me. I often feel like Im about to die. However, as soon as that life which I feel within me becomes smaller, withdrawing from my arms, from my head, I begin to live again. Often times I dont even see You.
I feel You, but I do not see your adorable presence, and I get scared. Im a bit frightened by that Life I feel within me, thinking: Who can be the one who has so much dominion within me that I feel like a limp rag under his power? Could he not be also an enemy of mine? If I want to oppose what he wants to do in me, he becomes so strong and imposing that my will has no power to do anything. So, I soon surrender, letting him win over me.
And Jesus: My daughter, my Will alone has the power of forming Its Life within the creature. It is clear that the soul has given Me, who knows how many times, sure evidence that she wants to live of my Will, not of her own. Any act of the human will which is not in Me, prevents the forming of my Life in her.
This is the greatest prodigy that my Will can work: my Life in the creature. Its Light prepares a place for Me. Its Heat purifies and consumes all that might be unsuitable for my Life, and provides Me with the elements necessary to develop my Life. Therefore, let Me do, that I may accomplish all that my Will has established upon you.
After many days of bitterness and of privation, my sweet Jesus carried Me outside of myself, and taking me in His arms, He placed me on His knees. Oh, how happy I felt on the lap of Jesus, after so much privations and bitterness! However, I felt shy. I had no desire to do or say anything. I had lost my usual, past familiarity with Jesus when He was with me. In the meantime, Jesus was doing so many things to me. He squeezed me so tightly to Himself that it hurt. He put His hand over my mouth, almost suffocating me. He kissed me. I gave Him nothing in return; nothing. I just didnt feel like doing anything. His absence had paralyzed me leaving me lifeless. I just let Him do it, without any resistance. Even if He had killed me, I wouldnt have said a word.
Then, wanting me to say something, Jesus told me: My little daughter, tell Me this at least: do you want your Jesus to bind you all over?
And I: Do as You wish.
He, took a thread in His hand, passed it around my head, before my eyes, my ears, my mouth, my neck, all around me, down to my feet. Then, looking at me with penetrating eyes, added: How beautiful is my little daughter, when I bind her all up! Now, yes, I will love you more, because the thread of my Will has left you nothing to do, and without becoming your full Life. This has made you so gracious that you have become really striking and beautiful to my eyes. My Will has the virtue and power to give to the soul a beauty so rare, so precious, that no one else will be able to equal her beauty. It is so great and so charming that it draws my eyes, and the eyes of everyone, to admire and love her.
After He said this, I found myself back inside myself. I was comforted and strengthened, yes, but very bitter, thinking, who knows when He would come back. I hadnt even had the chance to tell Him anything about how hard things were for me. So I started to fuse myself in His Most Holy Will, and my adorable Jesus came out from within me, forming a cloud of light all around me. Jesus leaned His arms on this cloud, and looked at the whole world, at all the creatures. So many offenses, from all classes of people, came before His most pure gaze, wounding my sweet Jesus! So many plots! So much deception and pretense! So much scheming for revolution, just waiting for unexpected incidents!
This all drew the chastisement of God, and entire cities were destroyed. My sweet Jesus, leaning on that cloud of light, shook His head and became bitter, down to the intimate part of His Heart.
Turning to me, He told me: My daughter, look at the state of the world! It is so grave that I can look at it only through this cloud. If I looked at it without this cloud, I would destroy a great part of it. Do you know what this cloud of Light is? It is my Will operating in you, along with acts you have performed in It. The more actions you take in It, the larger this cloud of Light becomes. It serves as my support, and lets Me look with that same Love with which my Will created man. It brings enchantment to my loving eyes, and making present to Me all that I did for love of him, causes a merciful Will arise within my Heart. I end up feeling compassion for the one whom I love so much.
To you, then, this cloud of Light serves in a marvelous way. It serves as light for all of your being. It wraps itself around you, leaving the earth as something alien to you. It allows no taste, however innocent, for people or other things, to enter into you. Bringing sweet enchantment to your eyes as well, It allows you to look at things according to the truth, in the same way as your Jesus looks at them. If It sees you weak, this cloud besieges you and gives you Its fortitude. If It sees you inactive, It enters into you and becomes operative.
Moreover, it is jealous to the highest degree. Its light acts as sentry, so that you may do nothing without It, and It may do nothing without you. And so, my daughter, why do you trouble yourself so much? Let my Will work in you. Let It concede not one act of life to your will which is not in Me, if you want my great designs to be fulfilled within you.
I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will, as I usually do, and my sweet Jesus began moving inside me.
He told me: My daughter, come into the immensity of my Will. All Heaven and all things created by Me anxiously await the kiss of the pilgrim soul who lives in the same Will in which they live, to give her their kiss in return. They live and receive continuous life from my Will, in which they find their complete glory, their full happiness and their perfect beauty. They are happy that there is a creature on earth who operates and lives in my Will and who will make Me look at the earth with the love with which I created it. They await to place in common with her the glory, the happiness, the beauty which they possess.
Since Heaven knows that nothing glorifies Me as much as a soul who lives in my Will, they too long for my Will to live in the souls upon earth. They are happy that their number will be increased by one more creature who will give Me complete glory, as much as that is possible for a creature. Hence, every act the creature does in my Will is a kiss that she gives and receives from the One who created her, and from all the blessed.
Do you know what this kiss is? It is the transformation of the soul in her Creator. It is the possession of God within the soul, and of the soul in God. It is the growth of the Divine Life in the soul. It is the accord of the whole of Heaven, and it is the right of supremacy over all created things. The soul, purged by my Will through the omnipotent breath which We, her God, infused in her, no longer produces the nausea of the human will. So God continues to breathe upon her with His omnipotent breath, so that she may grow with that Will with which He created her. On the other hand, the soul who has not yet been purged, feels the attraction of her own will, and so she acts against the Will of God, doing her own. God, feeling repugnance, cannot approach her to breathe on her again until the soul gives all of herself to the exercise and the fulfillment of the Divine Will.
You know that, in creating man, God infused Life in him with His breath. In this Life He infused in him intelligence, memory and will, relating them to His Divine Will. This Divine Will was to be like a King. It was to dominate the creature from the inside, giving Life to all, forming the intelligence and memory the Supreme Will wanted in her.
Once this was formed, it was natural for the eye of the creature to look at created things, and know their order as well as the Will of God over the whole universe. The ear was to hear the prodigies of this Eternal Will. The mouth was to feel the continuous breath of its Creator, communicating to it the goodness and Life contained in His Will. It was to echo the Eternal FIAT with its word, to narrate what Will of God means. The hands were to be the expression of the works of this Supreme Will. The feet were to do nothing but follow, step by step, the steps of their Creator.
So, once the Divine Will is established in the will of the creature, she has the eyes, the hearing, the mouth, and the hands and feet of my Will. She never departs from the origin from which she came. She remains always in my arms, and it is easy for her to feel my breath, and for Me to breathe upon her.
This is exactly what I want from the creature: that she let my Will reign in hers, and that her will serve as the dwelling of my Will. Then the Divine Will can place in her the celestial benefits It contains. This is what I want from you, so that all your acts, sealed by my Will, can form one single act. The single Act of my Will has no multiplicity or mutation of acts, as it happens in man. By uniting your will to It, your actions will remain in that Eternal Origin, and copy your Creator within you. This will give Him the Glory and the contentment that His Will is being done in you as It is in Heaven.
I was thinking to myself about certain things which my good Jesus had told me regarding the Will of God. These have been published, and now go around into the hands of those who want to read them. I felt so ashamed that it gave me an indescribable pain.
I said: My beloved Good, how could you allow this? Our secrets, which I wrote out of obedience, and only for love of You, are now before the eyes of others. If they publish anything else, I will die in agony from shame. Is this any way to treat me after all the painful sacrifice Ive been through already? You just left me alone in agony! If only You had been here with me, You would have had pity on my pain, and You would have given me the strength to bear so much shame and agony!
While I was saying this, my sweet Jesus came out from within me. He placed one hand on my forehead and the other on my mouth to stop the many distressful thoughts that came to me.
He told me: Be quiet, be quiet, dont go any further. Thats none of your business. Its Mine. It is my Will that follows Its course, making Itself known, and my Will is bigger than the sun. Its too hard to hide the light of the sun; in fact, thats completely impossible. If they try to stop it from one side, it goes around the obstacle they place in front of it, and escaping from the other sides, it follows its way with majesty. Those who wanted to prevent its course get confused, because they see it escape from all sides without being able to catch it. A lamp can be hidden, but the sun, never. Such is my Will, more so than the Sun. It will be impossible for you to hide It. So be quiet, my daughter, and let the Eternal Sun of my Will follow Its course. It will come out, both through your writing and its publication, as well as through your words and how you behave. Let It overcome every obstacle, escape all impediments and, as refulgent light, cover the whole world. I long for it. I want it.
Yet, how much of the truth of my Will was actually revealed? It was merely the photons of Its Light. And even though theyre only photons, you would be surprised to know how much good they do!
What will happen after all the truths I revealed about my Will have been gathered? The nourishment of Its Light and the goodness It contains will be known as will the infinite extension of Its merits as they multiply. Everything will be reunited as a whole and will bring, not just photons or a rising sun, but the full light of day. What will happen? This Eternal Sun will bring so much goodness into the midst of my creatures. You and I will both be so happy seeing my Will known, loved and done! So, let Me do what I have to do.
"Furthermore, it is not true that I have left you. How can it be, that you dont feel Me within yourself? Dont you hear the echo of my prayer inside you, as I embrace everything and everyone so that no one can escape Me? All things and all generations are like one single point for Me. So I pray, I love, I adore my Father and I make reparation, for all. And you, echoing my prayer, feel as if you were holding everyone and everything in your power, and you repeat what I do. Are you capable of doing this on your own? Ah, no, no! It is I, who am within you. It is my Will, following Its course within your soul, that makes you take everyone and everything in your power. But then again, do you really want anything apart from my Will? What do you fear? That I might leave you? Dont you know that the surest sign that I reside within you is that my Will has taken Its place of honor within you, that It dominates you, doing whatever It wants with you? My Will and I are inseparable, and It renders inseparable from Me whoever lets himself be dominated by It.
I was thinking about the many things that my beloved Jesus has told me about His Most Holy Will, and some doubts came back to me. Who knows? It might not really be necessary to say everything. Perhaps some of things I wrote werent so important.
But Jesus lovingly resolved my doubts and made me understand the mission He entrusts to someone who is to make His Divine Will known. Miserable as I am, and to my great confusion, to the point of stupefaction, he has chosen me for this mission and so He continued His holy instructions on this matter.
He told me: My daughter, every mission is connected to the office of executing it. It must be carried out, omitting nothing pertaining to it. In fact, every mission which is destined for the good of others has its own particular gifts, graces, riches and qualities, all useful for its execution.
My Humanity received from my Divinity, as a mission, the salvation of souls, and the office of Redeemer, to redeem them from the slavery of sin and from eternal death. To carry out this office, I was given their souls, their pain and their satisfaction. To do this, I enclosed within Myself everything from everyone. Its all or nothing. If my Humanity had neglected to enclose in Itself just one soul or one satisfaction, the office of Redeemer would not have been complete. I would not have enclosed in Myself all the grace, the goodness and the light necessary to give to each soul. The fact that not all souls are saved, changes nothing. I still had to enclose the benefits of all, just so I would have necessary and superabundant graces for all, enough to save everyone. This was fitting for the decorum and the just honor of my office as Redeemer.
Look at the sun above the horizon: it contains enough light for everyone. Although not everyone might want to enjoy its light, by its unique office as the sun, it possesses even the light that creatures might not want. This was appropriate for the Sun, because it was created by God as the one sphere which was to warm and embrace all the earth with its light. Each created being has its own office to carry out, and that office is uniquely linked to that being, to that creature. To execute it well, it is necessary that the one who is to carry out the office entrusted to her, has sufficient goodness. This is the goodness she must give to others according to the mission for which she was created. She must have so much of it that no matter how much of it she gives, it is never depleted, not even by one atom.
This was even more befitting Me, Who was to be the new Sun of the souls, and Who was to give light to all and embrace all with my light. I was to bring them all to the Supreme Majesty, offering to this Divine Majesty an act from Myself which would contain all acts, and to make the superabundant light of my Divinity descend upon all in order to rescue them.
Besides Me, there is my dear Celestial Mother, who received a unique mission as the Mother of a God Son, and the office of Co-Redemptrix of mankind. For her mission of Divine Maternity, She was enriched with so much grace, that all other creatures combined, both celestial and terrestrial, would never be able to equal Her. However, this was not enough to draw the Word into her maternal womb. It was necessary that the Mother put into action all this reservoir of graces and gifts, by embracing all creatures, loving them, making reparations and adoring the Supreme Majesty for all. She, Herself, was to accomplish all that the human generations owed to God.
Hence, in her virginal Heart, She had an inexhaustible vein open for God and for all creatures. When the Divinity found in this Virgin compensation for the love of all, It felt enraptured, and formed in Her Its Conception; that is, the Incarnation of the Word. As She conceived Me, She took on the office of Co- Redemptrix. She shared and embraced together with Me, all the pain, the substitution, the reparation, the maternal love, for all. In the Heart of my Mother there was a fiber of maternal love for each creature. This is why, when I was on the Cross, I declared Her Mother of all, in truth and with justice. She ran together with Me in the love, in the suffering, in everything. She never left Me alone. If the Eternal One had not placed so much grace in Her, enabling her to receive, alone, the love of all, He would never have come down upon earth from Heaven to redeem mankind. It was both appropriate and necessary that She had to embrace and surpass everything, as befitting the mission of the Mother of the Word.
As a consequence of an office being unique, nothing must escape the one who has it as a mission. He must have everything under his eyes so he can offer the good he possesses. He must be like a true sun that can give light to all. The is how my dear Celestial Mother and I were.
Your mission of making known the Eternal Will is braided with mine and with that of my dear Mother. Since it has to serve for the good of all, it was necessary to centralize the Eternal Sun of my Will in one creature. That way, being a unique mission, this Sun can let its rays blaze from her, and all can take in the goodness of Its Light. For the decorum and honor of my Will, I had to pour into you, as bearers and precursors, such grace, light, love and knowledge of It, befitting the residence of the Sun of my Will.
My Humanity, in Its office of Redeemer, conceived all souls. In your mission and office to make my Will known and make It reign, you will do the same. As you continue to act in my Will for their sake, all creatures will be conceived in your will. As you keep repeating your actions in Mine, you will condense many sips from the Life of the Divine Will. With these you will be able to nourish, by virtue of my Will, all the creatures conceived in yours.
Do you not feel how, in my Will, you embrace everyone, from the first to the last creature ever to live on earth. You will satisfy, love and please this Supreme Will on behalf of all, binding It to all. By making It known to all, you will remove all obstacles that prevent Its dominion in creatures. Even by your suffering, you offer yourself as satisfaction for all, to the Supreme Will, which so much loves to be known and to reign in the midst of creatures?
To you, Firstborn Daughter of my Divine Will, the task is given to make known the qualities, the value and the good It contains. You will also make known Its eternal sorrow from living unknown, hidden, in the midst of human generations. Moreover, you will show how it is despised and offended by the evil ones. Furthermore, they must know how It is placed by the good ones at the level of the other virtues, as if It were a little light which is lit by men, as virtues are in comparison with my Will. Virtues are not the Eternal Sun that is my Will.
The mission of my Will is the greatest that can be. There is no good which does not descend from It. There is no glory which does not come from It. Everything is centered in It, all our interior Works and those which We have delivered. From it comes the Creation of the angels, of the world, of men. It emanates all virtues, all merits, all predestination, all goodness, all the glory of the chosen ones and all the mysteries of infinite love, which are still unknown to man. It is the source of the past, the present and the future, all from one Act, still in action, contained in one single point.
Be attentive, and dont waste time with doubts or uncertainties. Everything I told you for this mission was required, not for you, but for the honor, the glory, the knowledge and the sanctity of my Will and of Its dominion in creatures. My Will is one, so one was to be the creature to whom I had to entrust It, and through whom Its rays would blaze, doing good to all.
After writing what is written above, I began to do the adoration to my Crucified Jesus, fusing all of myself in His Most Holy Will. My beloved Jesus came out from within me, and placed His Most Holy Will close to mine.
All tenderness, He asked me: My daughter, did you write everything on the mission of my Will?
And I: Yes, yes, I wrote everything.
And He, again: What if I told you that you did not write down everything? Actually, you have left out the most essential thing. So, continue to write, and add: The mission of my Will shall conceal the Most Holy Trinity upon earth.
In Heaven there are the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, inseparable but distinct among themselves. They form all the beatitudes of Heaven. Just the same, on earth there will be three persons who, because of their missions, will be distinct and inseparable among themselves. The first of these is the Virgin. Her Maternity conceals the Paternity of the Celestial Father and encloses His power to fulfill Her mission as Mother of the Eternal Word and Co-Redemptrix of mankind. My Humanity has the mission of Redeemer. It was enclosed in the Divinity of the Word, without ever separating from the Father or the Holy Spirit.
To manifest my celestial wisdom, I established an inseparable bond with my dear Mother and with you, for the mission of my Will. The Holy Spirit will display His Love in you, manifesting to you His secrets, the prodigies of my Will and the good It contains. This will make happy those who commit themselves to learning how much good the Supreme Will contains. Then they will love It and let It reign in their midst, offering their souls, letting It dwell within their hearts so that It can form Its Life in them. Then an inseparable bond will be added, between you, the Mother and the Eternal Word.
These three missions are both distinct and inseparable. The first two have prepared the graces, the light, the work, everything, with unheard-of pain, for the third mission of my Will. They will be completely fused in It, without leaving their office, and find rest, because my Will alone is celestial rest. These two missions will be repeated, because their exuberance of grace, of light, of knowledge, is so great that all human generations can be filled with them. Moreover, they will not be able to contain all the good which they contain.
These two missions are symbolized by the Sun, since, in creating it, I filled it with so much light and heat, that all human generations can enjoy it in superabundance. I did not even take into account that, since in the beginning of creation there were only Adam and Eve on earth. I could have provided the Sun with only enough light for the two of them, then making it grow in proportion to the growth of human generations. No, I made the Sun full of light, just as it is now, and will be. For the decorum and the honor of Our Power, Wisdom and Love, Our works are always created full of all the good they contain. They are not subject to increase or decrease.
This is what I did with the Sun. I centered in it all the light it was to give, up until the last man. The Sun does so much good to the earth. With its mute light It gives glory to its Creator. With the immense good it does to the earth, with its mute language, the Sun glorifies Me and makes Me known more than all other things put together. This is because of the fullness of its light and the stability of its course. When I looked at the Sun which, with so much light, only Adam and Eve could enjoy, I also looked at all the living. In seeing that this light was to serve all, my paternal goodness exulted with joy, and I was glorified in my works.
This is what I did with my dear Mother. I filled Her with so much grace, that She can give graces to all without ever exhausting any one of them. This is also what I did with my Humanity. There is no goodness which It does not possess. The Divinity Itself is able to give It to whomever wants It. So that is what I did with you. I enclosed within you my Will, and with It I enclosed Myself. I enclosed within you Its knowledge, Its secrets and Its light. I filled your soul up to the brim; so much so, that what you write is nothing other than the outpouring of what you contain of my Will. Even though it now serves you alone, and a few glimmers of light serve some other souls, I am content. Being light, it will make its way by itself, more so than a second Sun, to illuminate human generations and bring about the fulfillment of Our works. Our Will shall be known and loved, and reign as Life within creatures. This was the purpose of Creation. This was its beginning, this will be its means, and end.
Therefore, be attentive, because this is about rescuing that Eternal Will which, with so much love, wants to dwell in creatures. It wants to be known, It does not want to be like a stranger. It wants to give them Its goodness and become the life of each one. However, It wants Its rights in their entirety. It wants Its place of honor. It wants the human will, Its only enemy, and the enemy of man, to be banished.
The mission of my Will was the reason for creating man. My Divinity did not depart from Heaven or from Its throne. Nevertheless, my Will not only departed, but descended into all created things and formed Its Life in them. However, while all created things recognized Me, as I dwell in them with majestic dignity, man alone drove Me away. But I want to conquer him and win him. This is why my mission is not finished. So I called you, entrusting to you my own mission, which is that you place the one who drove Me away onto the lap of my Will, and that everything return to Me in my Will.
So, do not be surprised at the great and marvelous things I may tell you for the sake of this mission, or at the many graces I may give you. This is not about making a saint, but about saving the generations. This is about rescuing the Divine Will. Everything must return to the beginning, to the origin from which everything came, so that the purpose of my Will may have its complete fulfillment.
I write only out of obedience, and I am going to make a mix of past and present things. Many times in my writings I say: I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Volition, and I dont explain further. Now, forced by obedience, I will say what happens to me in this fusion in the Divine Volition.
As I fuse myself in It, an immense void, all of light, comes before my mind. I am not able to see either the extent of its height, or of its depth, or the boundaries on the right or on the left, or those in the front or in the back. In the midst of this immensity, at its highest point, I seem to see the Divinity, or the Three Divine Persons waiting for me, but this is always a mental image.
Then, and I dont know how, a little child comes out from within me. I know this child is me, or maybe its my own little soul. It is moving experience to see this little child starting out on this path within this immense empty space. She is all alone, shy, walking on tiptoe, with her eyes always fixed on the place where she sees the Three Divine Persons. She fears that if she lowers her gaze in that immense void, she would get lost. All her strength is in that gaze fixed on high and when her gaze is returned by the Supreme Height, she draws strength along the way. As the little one arrives before Them, she lunges, face first, into that empty space, to adore the Divine Majesty. A hand from the Divine Persons raises up the little child.
They say to her: Our daughter, the Little Daughter of Our Will, come into Our arms. On hearing this, she becomes festive, making the Three Divine Persons festive as well. While delighting in her, They await the performance of the office, which They entrusted to her.
With the grace typical of a child, she says: I come to adore You, to bless You and thank You for all. I come to bind to your throne all human wills of all generations, from the first to the last man, so that all may recognize Your Supreme Will. May all adore It, love It, and give It Life within their souls.
Then she added: O Supreme Majesty, in this immense void there are all these creatures. I want to take them all and place them in your Holy Will, so that all may return to the origin from which they came your Will. This is why I came into your paternal arms: to bring You all your children and brothers of mine, and bind them all with your Will. In the name of all and for everyone, I want to compensate You and give You homage and glory, as if everyone had done your Most Holy Will. Please, I beg You. Let there be no more separation between the Divine and human will! It is a little child who is asking you this, and I know that You can deny nothing to the little ones.
I could never tell you all that I did and said. It would be too long. Besides, I dont have the words to express what all I say before the Supreme Majesty. It seems to me that here in the low world we dont use the same language as in that immense empty space.
At other times, while I fuse myself in the Divine Will and that immense void comes before my mind, I wander around all created things. I impress in them one I love You for the Supreme Majesty, wanting to fill the whole atmosphere with many I love Yous. This is to repay the Supreme Love for His great love toward creatures. I go through each thought of every creature, and there I impress my I love You. I look through each gaze, and I leave my I love You. I experience each of their heartbeats, all their work and every step they take. I cover them all with my I love You, addressing them to my God. I go down into the sea, into the depths of the ocean, and I want to fill every darting of the fish, every drop of water, with my I love You.
Then, after she has worked everywhere, as though sowing the seed of her I love You, the little child presents herself before the Divine Majesty, wanting to give Him a pleasant surprise.
She says: My Creator and my Father, my Jesus and my Eternal Love, look at everything, and hear how all creatures say that they love You. Everywhere there is an I love You for You. Heaven and earth are filled with them.
Now, will You concede to your tiny little one that your Will descend into the midst of creatures, make Itself known, make peace with the human will. Let It take Its just dominion, Its place of honor, so that no creature shall ever do her will again, but always Yours
At other times, while fusing myself in the Divine Volition, I want to feel sorrow for all the offenses given to my God. So I start my round again in that immense void, to find all the sorrow that Jesus felt for every sin committed. I make each one my own. I wander everywhere, in public places as well as in the most hidden and secret places, over all the acts of evil men, to feel sorrow for all the offenses. For each sin, I gather within me all sorrow for all sins. I feel like crying out in every single movement of all creation: Forgiveness, forgiveness! There is not one offense to God, even the slightest one, for which I do not feel sorrow and ask forgiveness.
So that all may hear my plea of forgiveness for all sins, I impress it in the rumbling of thunder, so that sorrow for having offended my God may thunder in all hearts. My cry: Forgiveness!, is in every lightening strike. My sorrowful repentance in the whistling of the wind, cries out to all: Repentance, plea forgiveness! In the tinkling of bells, hear Sorrow and forgiveness! This goes on and on. Then I bring the sorrow of all to my God, and I implore forgiveness for all.
I tell Him: Great God, let your Will descend upon earth, so that sin may no longer take place! The human will alone is what produces so many offenses that it floods the earth with sin. Your Will shall be the destroyer of all evil. I beg you, make the Little Daughter of your Will happy. She wants nothing else but that your Will be known and loved, and that It reign in every heart.
I remember that one day I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Volition, and I looked at the sky as it was pouring rain. I felt such great pleasure in seeing water pouring down upon the earth. Then my sweet Jesus moved inside me.
With unspeakable love and tenderness, He told me: My daughter, in those drops of water that you see pouring down from heaven, there is my Will. Down It flows, rapidly, with the water. It runs to quench the thirst of creatures, descending into human bowels and into their veins, to refresh them. It becomes the life of creatures, bringing them my kiss and my Love. It descends to water the earth, to nourish it and grow food for my creatures. It descends for so many of their other needs. My Will wants to have Life in all created things, giving celestial and natural life to all creatures. However, even though It descends festively, full of Love for all, It does not receive a fair return from creatures. It remains on an empty stomach. My daughter, your will too, fused in Mine, flows in that water that pours down from heaven. Run together with Me, wherever It goes. Never leave It alone, give It your love in return and show gratitude on behalf of all.
My eyes became enchanted as He was saying this. I could not remove them from that downpour of water. My will was flowing together with it, and in that water I could see the hands of my Jesus multiplying into many, bringing water to all with His own hands. I cant begin to tell you how I felt. Only Jesus, its Author, could explain it. Who could explain the many ways of fusing myself in His Most Holy Volition? I have said enough for now. If Jesus wants me to continue some other time, He will give me the words and the grace to say more, and I will start again.
Continuing, I asked my Jesus: Tell me, my Love, what is this void that comes before my mind when I fuse myself in your Most Holy Will? Who is this little child that comes out from me? Why does she feel like an irresistible force that comes to your throne and places her little actions into the divine womb? Its as if she has prepared a feast
My sweet Jesus, all goodness, told me: My daughter, the empty space is my unrequited Will. It is at your disposal, and needs to be filled with so many actions, as many as the creatures would have done, had they all fulfilled Our Will. This immense void that you see, which represents Our Will, came out from Our Divinity for the benefit of all Creation, to delight everyone and everything. As a consequence, all creatures should have filled this void with their actions in response, by giving their wills to their Creator. But since they did not, they saddened Us with the most grave offense that can possibly be imagined.
This is why We called you for a special mission. This void must be filled in return with all that the others should have given Us. This is the reason why We have prepared you with a long chain of graces, and then asked you if you wanted to live in Our Will. You answered with a yes, firm and irretractable, thus binding your will to Our throne. You no longer recognize it because the human will and the Divine Will are irreconcilable and cannot live together. Your yes, that is, your will, exists, and is tightly bound to Our throne. This is why your soul, like a little child reborn in Our Divine Volition, is drawn before the Supreme Majesty.
As you rise up toward Us, your will, which is already Ours, precedes you, and you feel Our Will attracting you like a powerful magnet. Instead of looking at your will, you are only interested in bringing onto Our lap everything you did in Our Will. This is the greatest homage befitting Us, and the return most pleasing to Us. Your indifference to your will means youve already lost sight of it. That Our Will alone lives in you makes Us festive. Your little actions done in Our Will bring Us the joys of the whole of Creation. Everything smiles at Us, and all created things are festive.
We watch you descend from Our throne without even the slightest attention to your own will, lost within Ours. Seeing you going back to earth, taking with you Our Will, is an infinite joy for Us. This is why I always say to you, Pay attention to Our Will. There is so much to do in It. The more you do, the greater the feast you prepare for Us. Then Our Volition will pour Itself out in torrents, both inside and outside of you.
After I told the Confessor what I wrote on May 10th, on fusing myself with the Divine Volition, he was not satisfied. He ordered me to write more about how I fuse myself within the Holy Divine Volition. So, out of obedience, and for fear that my Jesus might be even remotely disappointed, I continue.
As that immense void appears before my mind, when fusing myself within the Supreme Volition, the little child starts her rounds again. Rising up high, she wants to repay her God for all the love He had for all creatures in Creation.
Wanting to honor Him as Creator of all things, she goes all around the stars. Into each flicker of light I impress my I love You and Glory to my Creator. In every photon of light coming down from the sun, I place my I love you and Glory. In the whole expanse of the heavens, between the distance from one step to another, I lodge my I love you and Glory. In the warbling of the bird, in the beating of its wings: Love and Glory to my Creator. In the blade of grass which sprouts from the earth, in the flower that blooms, in the fragrance that ascends: Love and Glory. On the peak of the mountains and in the depths of the valleys: Love and Glory. I wander through the heart of every creature to enclose myself and shout from within, to every heart, my I love you and Glory to my Creator.
Having gathered everything together so that everything returns its gift of love and glorifies God for all He has done in Creation, I go to His Throne, and I say to Him:
Supreme Majesty and Creator of all things, this little child comes into your arms to tell You that all of Creation, in the name of all creatures, returns Your love. It justly glorifies You for all the many things You have created for love of us.
In your Will, in this immense empty space, I wandered everywhere, so that all things may glorify You, love You and bless You. I have repaired the loving relationship between Creator and creature, which the human will had broken, with all the glory that everyone owed You.
Let your Will descend upon earth. Let It bind and strengthen all the relations between Creator and creature, so that all things may return to the original order You have established. Hurry, do not delay any longer. Dont You see how full of evil the earth has become? Your Will alone can stop this trend and save it. Let your Will rule and be known.
After this, I feel that my office is still not complete. So I descend to the bottom of that empty space, to repay Jesus for the Work of Redemption. Finding all that He did in action, I make up to Him for all the actions that all creatures should have done by waiting for Him and receiving Him on earth.
Then, wanting to transform myself completely into love for Jesus, I go back to my refrain, and I say: I LOVE YOU in the act of descending from Heaven to be incarnated. I impress my I LOVE YOU in the act of being conceived in the most pure womb of the Virgin Mary. I LOVE YOU in the first drop of blood which was formed in your Humanity. I LOVE YOU in the first beat of your Heart, marking all your heartbeats with my I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU in your first breath; I LOVE YOU in your first pains; I LOVE YOU in the first tears You shed in the maternal womb. I want to return your prayers, your reparations, and your offerings, with my I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU in your birth. I LOVE YOU in the cold you suffered. I LOVE YOU in each drop of milk you suckled from your dearest, Most Holy Mother. I want to fill with my I LOVE YOUs the clothes with which your beloved Mother swaddled You. I lay my I LOVE YOU upon the ground where your dear Mother placed You in the manger, as your most tender limbs felt the hardness of the hay, and worse, the hardness of hearts.
My I LOVE YOU is in each of your wailings, in all the tears and suffering of your childhood. I make my I LOVE YOU flow in all the relations and communications and love You had with your dearest Immaculate Mother. I LOVE YOU in Her dearest kisses, in each word You said, in the food You took, in the steps You took, in the water You drank. I LOVE YOU in the work You did with your hands. I LOVE YOU in all the acts You did during your hidden Life. I seal my I LOVE YOU in each one of your interior acts and in the pains You suffered. I lay my I LOVE YOU upon the paths You covered, in the air You breathed, in all the sermons You made during your public Life. My I LOVE YOU flows in the power of the miracles You made, in the Sacraments You instituted. In everything, O my Jesus, even in the most intimate fibers of your Heart, I impress my I LOVE YOU, for me and for all. Your Will makes everything present to me, and do I want to leave anything, in which my I LOVE YOU is not impressed.
Your little Daughter of your Will feels this duty, that You may have at least my little I LOVE YOU for everything You did for me and for all. Theres really nothing else she can do. My I LOVE YOU follows You in all the pain of your Passion, through all the spit, scorn and the insults they gave You. My I LOVE YOU seals every drop of the Blood You shed, every blow You received, every wound inflicted on your body. It seals each thorn that gripped your head, the bitter pains of the Crucifixion and the words You pronounced on the Cross. I intend to impress my I LOVE YOU up til your last breath. I want to enclose all of your Life and all your actions with my I LOVE YOU. I want You to touch, see and feel my continuous I LOVE YOU. My I LOVE YOU will never leave You. Your Will is the very life of my I LOVE YOU.
You loved the Divine Will of your Father so much that You did It all during your Life upon earth. You know what this little child wants: that It make Itself known to all creatures, so that all may love It and fulfill your Will, on earth as It is in Heaven. This little child would even want to surpass You in love, so that You may give your Will to all creatures. Please, make this poor little one happy, who wants nothing but what You want: that your Will be known and reign upon all the earth.
Now I believe that obedience will be happy in some way. Its true though, that on many things I had to jump around a bit, otherwise I would never finish. Fusing myself in the Divine Volition, for me, is like a springing fountain. Every tiny thing I see or hear, even one little offense given to my Jesus, is an opportunity for me to learn new ways to fuse myself within His Most Holy Will.
After that, my sweet Jesus told me: My daughter, besides everything youve already said about fusing yourself within my Will, there is something else that must be added. Its about fusing yourself, through grace, with all that the Sanctifier, the Holy Spirit, has done and will do to those who are to be sanctified.
We, the Three Divine Persons, are always united in our work. Just as Creation is the work of the Father, and Redemption, the work of the Son, the Fiat Voluntas Tua is attributed to the Holy Spirit. It is precisely in the Fiat Voluntas Tua that the Divine Spirit will display His Work. You do it when, in coming before the Supreme Majesty, you say: I come to give love in return for everything which the Sanctifier does to those who are to be sanctified. I come to enter into the order of grace, to give You glory and return of love, as if all had become Saints, and to repair You for all the oppositions and lack of correspondence to grace ; and as much as you can, in Our Will you search for the acts of grace of the Spirit Sanctifier, in order to make your own - His sorrow, His secret moans, His anguishing sighs in the depth of the hearts, on seeing Himself unwelcome. And since the first act He does is to bring our Will as the complete act of their sanctification, on seeing Himself rejected, He moans with inexpressible moans. And in your childlike simplicity, you say to Him: Spirit Sanctifier, hurry, I implore You, I beg You, let everyone know your Will, so that, in knowing It, they may love It and welcome your prime act of their complete sanctification which is your Holy Will! My daughter, We - the Three Divine Persons - are inseparable and distinct, and in this way do We want to manifest to the human generations Our Works for them: while remaining united within Ourselves, each One of Us wants to manifest individually His Love and His Work for the creatures.
I was thinking to myself, lamenting to my adorable Jesus, that sometimes He comes and makes me suffer in the presence of my Confessor. As much as I try, its impossible for me to resist falling into that state of unconsciousness and suffering,.
I say to Jesus: My Love, there was time last night; and there is time today for You to come and make me suffer. But for now, since the Confessor is here, let me be free. Afterwards, You will do whatever You want, I will be at your disposal. But, no! I speak in vain. An irresistible force takes me by surprise and makes me feel like I were dying.
I was complaining about this to Jesus, and I prayed that He would not allow it.
And He, all goodness, told me: My daughter, if I allow it, it is because of the firmness of the Confessor. He never ceases to pray for you to suffer for my Glory and appeasement. If I did not concur, you would dishonor Me. You would cause doubts about the truths I have manifested to you, both on my Will and the other virtues. Someone could say: Where is the obedience of the victim, whose very nature must be transformed into what obedience wants? You dont realize that, by refusing my work, you would dishonor Me. They would stop believing that it is I who speak and operate in you.
I did not remove original sin from you, as I did with my beloved Mother. However, before entrusting you with the mission of my Will, I removed earthly desires and the seed of corruption from you. It does not befit the decorum or the Sanctity of my Will to work within a corrupted will or nature.
These would have been like clouds blocking the Sun of my Will. Like the sunlight, the knowledge of It would not shine through to take possession of your soul. Now, since my Will is in you, Heaven, the Most Holy Virgin and all the Angels and Saints are bound to you, because my Will is the Life of each one of them.
So, when you hesitate, even slightly, or when you reflect on whether you should adhere or not, Heaven and earth feel their foundations being shaken. That Will, the Life of all, because of Its supreme goodness, wants to reign in you as it does in Heaven. It is undermined by not having Its full dominion or Its rightful honor. Thus, my recommendation to you is: never again call your will to life. If you want your Jesus to be honored in you, let my Will to have Its full dominion.
I was frightened, hearing about the great evil I do, by merely thinking about whether I should surrender or not to what Jesus wants from me, even though I always end up surrendering. I shudder to think what would happen if I did not surrender. I was stressed, fearing I might do just that. I hope it never comes to that! My adorable Jesus had compassion for my distress. He knew that I felt crushed by the fear that I might not always do His Most Holy Will.
He came back and told me: Courage my daughter, dont be afraid. Ive explained this already. I showed you how all of Heaven is bound to that Will of Mine which reigns in you, so that you will never surrender to your will. The Divine Will and the human will are at war with each other.
The Divine Will is stronger, holier and immense. It is more expedient for the enemy, the human will, to be under It, at Its feet, serving as the footstool of the Divine Will. In fact, one who lives in my Will should not consider himself a terrestrial citizen. He should think of himself as a citizen of Heaven. It is with good reason that all the Blessed feel shaken.
One who lives with their own Will is thinking about letting the human will enter the field. This would be cause for disorder, such has never before entered the celestial regions. You must be convinced of the fact that by living in my Will, the life of your own will has ended, and no longer has any reason to exist. This is why I have told you so many times before that living in my Will is very different from just doing my Will. Those who do my Will are free to give it and to take it back, because they live as terrestrial citizens. However, one who lives in It is bound to an eternal point, flows together with my Will, and is surrounded by an unconquerable fortress. So pay attention and dont be afraid.
Wanting to cheer me up and strengthen me in His Most Holy Will, He took my hand in His.
He told me: My daughter, come and make your rounds within my Will. See, my Will is one, but It flows in all created things, apparently divided, though not really divided at all. Look at the stars, the blue heavens, the sun, the moon, the plants, the flowers, the fruits, the fields, the earth, the sea. Look at everything and everyone. Within each thing there is an act of my Will. However, it is not just an action. My Will has remained within each created thing as the preserver of my own action. My Will does not want to remain alone in Its act, but wants the company of your action. It wants you to reciprocate. This is why I placed you in my Will.
I want you to keep my actions company. Along with my Will, you will want whatever I want. You will want the stars to twinkle, the sun to fill the earth with light, the plants bloom, the field to become golden, the bird warble, the sea murmur, and the fish dart about in the water. You will want whatever I want, so my Will may no longer feel alone in created things. It will have the company of your actions. Hence, go around each created thing, and make yourself act for every act of my Will. This is what it means to live in my Will. You will never leave your Creator alone to admire all of His works. In return for His divine acts, you will give Him the little acts of a creature.
I dont know how, but I found myself in that immense void of Light. I was to find all those actions that have come out of the Will of God and to thankfully affirm them as an act of adoration, praise, love and thanksgiving. Then, I found myself back inside myself.
I was feeling depressed because of the loss of my adorable Jesus. How I longed for His return! I called to Him with my heart, with my voice and with my thoughts, which had become so awake and active in His absence. Oh, God! The nights are so long without Jesus, while, with Him, they pass by like a single breath!
I was saying: My Love, come, do not leave me! I am too little, I need You. You know that my littleness cannot live without You. Yet, still, you leave me! Come back, come back, O Jesus!
At that moment, He wrapped his arm around my neck, and He made Himself seen as a child. He pushing His head, hard, against the inside of my chest. He was battering His head against my chest so hard that I felt it breaking apart. I was trembling with fear.
Jesus, with a strong and sonorous voice, told me: My daughter, do not fear. Its Me, I didnt leave you. How could I leave you? Living in my Will makes the soul inseparable from Me. My Life is for her more than the soul is to the body. The body without the soul turns into dust, because it lacks life to sustain it. Its the same without my Life within you. You would be emptied of all the acts of my Will in you. You would no longer hear my voice in the depth of your soul, repeating my suggestions to you on how to fulfill the office of my Will. Where there is my voice, there is also my Life that emits it. How easily you think I might leave you! I cant do that. First you leave my Will, and then you think that I have left you. Likewise, its also difficult for you to leave my Will. Almost impossible.
You are in a condition which is something like the Blessed in Heaven. They have not lost their free will. This is a gift that I have given man, and once I give something, I never take it back. Slavery has never entered Heaven. I am the God of sons, not of slaves. I am the King who makes everyone reign, there is no separation between Me and them. In Heaven, knowledge of my goodness, my Will and my happiness, is great. It is so vast that they are filled to the brim, to the point of overflowing, so their will finds no opportunity to act. They are free. The knowledge of an infinite Will and of the infinite goodness in which they are immersed, leads them, with irresistible force, to use their will as if they didnt have one. They consider this their highest fortune and happiness, while nevertheless, it is a spontaneous freedom of their own will.
Its the same for you, my daughter. Making my Will known to you has been the greatest grace I have given you. Even though you are free to do your will or not, when faced with Mine, your will feels incapable of working, it feels annihilated. Knowing how good my Will is, you abhor your own. In view of the great good which comes of it, you love to do my Will, without anyone forcing you. All the facts about my Will that I have taught you are divine bonds, eternal chains that surround you. You possess something celestial. Even if you wanted to escape these eternal chains, break these divine bonds, lose these celestial possessions in this life, your will, though free, would never find its way out. It gets confused. It sees how small is its littleness, and fearing even itself, or a trick of its own, it dives, plunging itself into my Will, with more spontaneous love. Knowledge opens the doors to the good which is known. The more I manifested knowledge about my Will to you, the more and different doors I opened for you, of goodness, of Light, of grace and of divine participation.
These doors are opened for you. And as this knowledge reaches the midst of creatures, the doors will be opened for them too. Knowledge makes love arise for the good which is known. The great door, which I will open, shall be my Will, so that they may close the little door of their own will. My Will makes them abhor their own, because in the face of my Will, the human is incapable of acting. With the light of my Will, the creature can see how insignificant and good for nothing her own is. Consequently, the creatures who penetrate into this divine knowledge, depending on the effort they make to reach them, will keep their own will set aside.
You must understand this when I teach you something about my Will. I only decide to open another door to my knowledge after you have let all the good of what I have already taught you enter into your soul. If I did not do so, you would only have news of that good, but not the possession of It. This, I cannot do. Whenever I speak, I want you to possess the good which I teach. Therefore, be attentive in the practice of my Will, so that I may open for you more doors to my knowledge, and so that you may enter further into what the divine possesses.
I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will as usual, thinking to myself.
Where has Our Lord God done more for the creature: in Creation, in Redemption, or in Sanctification?
And my always adorable Jesus, moving inside me, showed me all of Creation. How sublime! What magnificence! So much harmony! Such order! There is no place, either in Heaven or on earth, where God has not created something special and distinct. He has done so with such mastery. Faced with the tiniest things created by God, the greatest scientists feel that all their mastery of science is absolutely nothing compared to the things created by God, so full of life and motion. How true it is that to look at the Universe and not to recognize God, love Him and believe in Him, is true madness! All created things are like many veils which hide Him. God comes to us, veiled in each created thing, because man is incapable of seeing Him unveiled in his mortal flesh. The Love of God for us is so great that He does not to dazzle us with His Light or frighten us with His Power. He does not make us feel ashamed in front of His Beauty or make us feel annihilated before His Immensity. He veils Himself in created things. He comes to be with us in each created thing. Moreover, He makes us swim in His very Life. My God, how much You have loved us, and how much You do love us!
He made me look at the whole Universe.
Then my sweet Jesus told me: My daughter, everything was made in Creation. In It, the Divinity manifested all Its Wisdom, Majesty and Power. It displayed His total Love toward creatures. There is not one point, either in Heaven or on earth, or in any created thing, where the perfection of Our Works is not complete. Not one thing was left half-made. In Creation, God showed off all His works for creatures. He loved with total love, and made complete works; there was nothing to be added or subtracted. I made everything perfect. We never make incomplete works. On the contrary, in each created thing We placed a distinct and complete love in Creation, for each creature.
The Redemption was reparation for the evils that creatures had done. It added nothing to the work of Creation. Sanctification is nothing other than help, grace and light, so that man may return to his original state of creation, to his origin, and to the purpose for which he was created. In fact, in Creation, by virtue of my Will, the Sanctity of man was complete, since he came out from a complete Act of God. He was a man, happy and holy in his soul, just as he was happy and holy in his body, because my Will brought to him the reflection of the Sanctity of his Creator.
My daughter, even with Redemption and the work of Sanctification, Sanctity for some men is still incomplete, while for others it is almost useless. Man must turn back and take my Will as his life, his rule and his food. He must be purified, ennobled and divinized. He must take his part in the prime Act of Creation and receive my Will as his inheritance, bequeathed to him by God. If he doesnt do this, then the Works of Redemption and of Sanctification will not have their abundant effects.
Everything is in my Will. If man takes It, he takes everything. It is the one single point which embraces and encloses all the benefits of Redemption and of Sanctification. For those who do not do my Will, all these benefits may serve as a remedy. It is different for one who lives in my Will. After he has taken the prime point of creation, he receives these gifts as glory, a special inheritance. They are carried upon earth by the Will of the Celestial Father, in the Person of the Word.
The Primal Act was precisely this: I came upon earth to make known the Will of my Father and to bind It again to the creatures. All the pain, the humiliations, my hidden Life, and the whole immense sea of the pains of my Passion, were remedies, medicine, support and lights making my Will known. With It, I would make man not only saved, but holy.
With my pain I brought him to safety. With my Will I gave him back the Sanctity lost in the terrestrial Eden. Had I not done this, neither my Love nor my Work would have been complete as they were in Creation. My Will alone has the virtue of completing Our Works for the creatures, and the works of creatures for Us.
My Will makes one think in a way which is different from the human way. It makes one look at my Will in all created things, speak with the echo of my Will and work through the veils of my Will. One does everything, all at once, according to my Supreme Volition. This quickly leads the creature to perfect Sanctity; while the other virtues act slowly, little by little. My Redemption Itself, without the Prime Act of my Will, serves as dressing for the deepest wounds, like medicine for man, so he wont die. It is like an antidote, so he will not fall into hell.
Take to heart my Will alone, if you really want to love Me, and to make yourself a saint.
I felt my poor mind immersed in the Most Holy Will of God. I wished that I would not take a single breath, or feel even one heartbeat or make any movement at all, outside the Supreme Volition! It seemed to me that everything done outside the Will of God cuts us off from any new beauty, grace or light, making us unlike our Creator. Jesus wants us to be like our Supreme Maker in everything. How could it be any easier to be like Him, than by receiving within us the continuous Life of His Most Holy Will? It brings us the reflection and the features of our Celestial Father. It maintains whole within us the purpose of Creation. It surrounds us, preserving our beauty and holiness, just as God created us. It gives us something, that is ever new, of beauty, light, and love, which is never interrupted, and can be found only in God.
While my mind was wandering in the Eternal Will, my sweet Jesus hugged me.
With an audible voice, He told me: My daughter, there is nothing that can equal the great evil of not doing my Will. There is no good which can equal doing It. There is no virtue which can stand before It. The goodness lost by not doing my Will is irreparable in itself. You can only find a remedy for it by returning to It again. Then the goodness which Our Will had established as a gift for the creatures can be given back to her. In vain do creatures delude themselves by doing other works, being virtuous or making sacrifices. If these are not born from my Will in order to fulfill It, I do not recognize them.
It is established that grace, aid, light, goodness and a just reward will be given to those who fulfill my Will. My Will is eternal. It has no beginning and will have no end. Who can calculate an action done in my Will, which has no beginning and no end? My Will transforms the act to be like Itself. On the other hand, virtues, works and sacrifice done without my Will have a beginning, as well as en end. What kind of reward can perishable things ever receive?
Furthermore, my Will is the balance of my attributes. If my Power did not have this Holy Will, it would turn into tyranny toward those who offend Me so much. By balancing my Power, my Will makes Me pour out grace where I should be pouring out fury and destruction. If it wasnt for my Will, which gives it ever new Life, my Wisdom would not manifest so much art and mastery in Our Works. Our Beauty would be faded and unattractive if it were not sustained by this Eternal Will. Mercy would turn into weakness, if it were not balanced by my Will. It balances all of Our attributes. Our Paternal Goodness now has so much Love for creatures that it has established the balance of man within Our Will. Since man has come from the Supreme Will, it is right that this Will should become the life maintaining the balance of all the works of man, giving him Likeness to his Creator. Enough dignity, majesty and orderly action were to be seen in him, that he is recognized as a child of his Maker. By his actions it can be seen whether he is centered on my Will, or the human will.
This is why, in so many works, even good ones, neither balance, rule nor order can be seen. The execution of my Will is missing. Thus, instead of being admired, they are blamed, and instead of shedding light, they cast darkness. Everything good comes from my Will. Without It, things only appear to be good. In reality, they are without life, and maybe even toxic. They can poison those who take part in them.
I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will as usual, and that immense void of the Most Holy Supreme Volition came before my mind. I thought to myself: How can this void ever be filled by the reparation of human actions done in the adorable Divine Will? To do this, all the barriers of human will must be removed. They are barriers blocking the entrance to this eternal and celestial sphere of the Supreme Will. It seems that God is waiting there for man, to let him return to his origin in the order of Creation, taking his first steps upon that path where he had his beginning.
Nothing new, nothing good can be seen in the world. Sins are still the same as they were, or even worse. Sometimes you hear about an awakening of religion, or works of Catholic Action, but some of them seem to be masquerades. Others seem to good, but deep inside there are substantial passions and vices, enough to weep over more than ever before. If they are looked at in God, you can see how unseemly they are for the Divine, most pure, eternal Will!
Could man, all of a sudden, allow all his vices to die, giving life to all the virtues, so he could live in this sphere of the Supreme Will? To live in It, there can be no compromise. Lives cannot be split between virtues and vices. To convert all things into the Will of God, it is necessary to sacrifice everything. The human will and human things can no longer have life. They can only exist so that the Will of God can be fulfilled in them, so that God may carry out His Life within us.
While I was thinking about all this, among other things, my sweet Jesus, interrupted my thought.
He told me: Nevertheless, My daughter, so it will be. This immense void of my Will shall be filled with human actions done by creatures within my Will. The Divine Will came out of the eternal Womb of the Supreme Being for the good of man.
In coming out from Ourselves, with one single Act, We overwhelmed man so that that he could never find a way out. Then this Will of Ours multiplied into innumerable actions, surrounding him. We were saying to him: See, this Will of Mine not only wraps you up in It, but is continuously acting with immediacy, so It can be known and receive your act in return, within my Will.
All things have their return. If they dont, they are worthless, useless works. The seed sowed under the earth by the sower wants its yield, so the seed generates more seeds: ten, twenty, or thirty, out of one. The tree which is planted by the farmer wants in return the generation and multiplication of the fruit. The water which is drawn from the fountain yields the quenching ones thirst, or the washing and cleansing of the one who drew it. The fire which is lit yields heat and the service it renders to Humanity. Just the same is true for all the other things created by God, Who has the power to generate. They contain the virtue of regeneration. They multiply and give their return.
This Will of Ours came out from Ourselves with so much Love, so many manifestations and so many continuous acts. Is Our Will the only thing to remain without Its return in the regeneration of other human wills into Divine?
A seed gives more seeds, one fruit generates other fruit, man generates another man, a master generates another master. Is Our Will alone, as powerful as It is, to remain isolated, without return and without generating and multiplying Itself in the human will? No! This is impossible. Our Will shall have Its return. It will have Its divine generations in the human will. Furthermore, this was Our Prime Act, through which all things were created. Our Will would transform and regenerate the human will into the Divine.
Will is what came out from Ourselves and will is what we want. All other things were done in the secondary order, while this was done and established in the primary order of Creation. At the most, it may take time; but the centuries will not end, until my Will obtains Its purpose. It has fulfilled the purpose of regeneration in secondary things, so It must fulfill its primary purpose. Our Will would never have departed from Our Womb, had It known that It would not implement Its full effects, that the human will would be regenerated in the Divine Will.
Do you think that things will always be as they are today? No! My Will shall overwhelm everything. It will cause confusion everywhere. All things will be turned upside down. Many new phenomena will occur that will confuse the pride of man. Nothing will be held back. War, revolution and death of every kind will bring man down, so he will be more inclined to accept the regeneration of the Divine Will in the human will.
Everything I teach you about my Will, as well as everything you do in It, serve only to prepare the ways and means. These are the teachings, the light and the graces that shall regenerate my Will in the human will. If this were not to occur, I would not have shown you so much. I would not have kept you in bed for such a long time as a sacrifice. It was to establish in you the foundations for the regeneration of my Will in yours, and to keep you continuously exercising within my Will.
Do you think that I am continuously within you for nothing? I am feeding you my prayer and making you feel my pain together with Me so that you may acquire another value, other effects, and another power. I am making you the first statue, the first soul in the regeneration of my Will. Then, it will be easier to make copies.
This is why I always say to you: Be attentive, for this is about something really great, the most important thing that exists in Heaven or on earth. It is about rescuing the rights of Our Will. It is about giving back to Us the purpose of Creation. It is about returning to Us all the glory for which all things were made. It is about making Us pour out all the graces which Our Will had established to be given to creatures, had they fulfilled Our Will in everything.
I felt immersed in the Holy Will of God, and my sweet Jesus, took me into His arms and gave me a big hug.
He said to me: My daughter, how wonderful it is to rest in the soul who has my Will as her life, and who lets my Will act and love, entirely and completely, within her! Everything the soul does as she breathes, palpitates, works, thinks, loves, or acts, is carried out within her. However, since my Will has become the center of her life, it is my Will that breathes, palpitates, loves, thinks, acts. It is my Will that gives motion to her work, circulation to her blood, thought to her mind and love to her heart. This Will is the same as the one the Three Divine Persons have, so They feel within Them the breath of the soul, her heartbeat and her every movement.
Every time Our Will decides to perform an action, It releases from Us new joys, beatitudes and happiness. They harmonize everything among the Three Divine Persons, forming immense seas of new happiness that envelop all the Blessed. They are shaken with rapture within these joys even as the rapture becomes ever stronger within Our immeasurable beatitude. Using Our Will, she wants to perform even more acts of Will to make Us happy, which makes Us release still more beatitudes. The soul who lets Our Will live within her, reaches the point where, as It operates, We have the opportunity to set in motion Our beatitudes, harmonies and the infinite joy of Our Love. In this way, she makes Us release ever new and glorious beauty.
To have Our Will operating within the creature is so very pleasing, tender and lovable to Us. It gives Us new surprises. It puts things in motion, returning to Us Our glory, Our Love and Our happinesses. This all happens through the creature who has given space within herself where Our Will can live. Who wouldnt love what is born from Our Will? Our Will renders this creature ever more lovable, gracious and beautiful to Us. In no one else do we find her qualities. She is a work done by Our Will with such mastery as to enchant all of Heaven. Every one loves her, especially the Sacrosanct Trinity.
While He was saying this, He hugged me tighter and let me place my mouth in His Heart.
He added: You too, drink Our beatitudes in large gulps. Drink your fill, anyway you want, and as much as you want.
As I was in my usual state, my adorable Jesus, all love and tenderness, came to my poor soul. He came close and stared at me, as if He wanted to tell me something. However, He needed to enlarge my intelligence, because it was incapable of receiving and comprehending everything He wanted to say to me.
He laid down on me, covering me with his body, so I was hidden inside of Him: my face in His, my hands and my feet in His. He seemed intent on covering me and hiding me within Himself, so that nothing of myself would ever be seen again. I felt so happy, completely covered by Jesus, hidden inside Him! Everything disappeared and I could see nothing but Jesus. The joy and happiness of His adorable presence had all returned, as if by magic, to live again in my poor heart. My pain had been banished from me, and I no longer remembered the privation of Him that had cost me such mortal pain. How easy it is to forget everything when I am with Jesus!
He kept me covered and hidden in Him for so long that I thought He would never again leave me. I heard Him calling the Angels and Saints and they came to see what Jesus was doing with me, the way He kept me covered inside His Adorable Person.
Then, He made me share in His pain, and I let Him do whatever He wanted. I felt crushed by the pain, yet, I was happy and I experienced the joy which the Divine Will contains when the soul abandons herself in It, even while suffering.
After making me suffer, He said to me: My daughter, my Will wants to give Itself to you more and more; but, to do that, It needs to make Itself understood better. To safely reinforce what I have taught you and make you more worthy, It gives you more pain, to incline you more toward the void being prepared in you, where Its truths can be stored.
It wants the noble courtship of pain so It can be sure about the trustworthiness of the soul. It is always the pain of the cross that opens the door to new understanding of secret knowledge, the greatest gift I can give you.
If the soul firmly bears my Will when It is suffering and sorrowful, then she will be capable of receiving my Will when It brings happiness. Then she will acquire the intellect to hear and understand new lessons about my Will. Pain will help her acquire the celestial language, so that she will be able to pass on the lessons she has learned.
On hearing this, I said to Him: My Jesus and my Life, it seems to me that the complete sacrifice of the soul and of the body is needed in order to do your Will and to live in It. At first it seems trivial; however, it is difficult in practice. You dont have one single breath of your own will, not even in holy things, or in goodness itself. You have to be still, content in any suffering, whether interior and external. It seems too grievous and painful for human nature to bear. Souls will never be able to sacrifice everything completely to live in your Will.
So Jesus said: My daughter, its all about understanding the great good that comes to her by doing my Will, by operating and living in It. It is this Will that wants sacrifice. It is incompatible with a low, small and finite will. Divine Will cannot live together or even associate with it. For those who want to live in my Will, It transforms the actions of the soul into something eternal, infinite and divine. How can It do this, if the soul prefers that her human will breathe elsewhere, even in something holy, as you say? Since her will is always finite, living in my Will would no longer be real, but only just a manner of speaking.
On the other hand, the office of my Will is total dominion. It is right that the little atom of the human will should be conquered, and that it lose its field of action in my Will. What would you say if a little lamp, a match, or a spark of fire, were to go into the sun, and try to establish its own field of light and action there in its center? If the sun were alive, it would become indignant, and its own heat and light would annihilate that little lamp, or that match or spark. Then you would be the first to mock them, condemning their bold attempt to form their own field of action within the light of the sun. Such is the breath of the human will within Mine, even when trying to be good. So, be attentive that your will does not try to live in anything. I covered and hid you completely within Me, so that you would not have eyes for anything other than my Will alone, giving It a free field of action within your soul.
The most difficult thing is not in sacrificing oneself, but in comprehending how to live in my Will. This becomes clear once souls have understood the great good which comes to them by living in my Divine Will. From being poor, they become rich. From being slaves of vile passions, they become independent rulers. From being servants, they become masters. From being unhappy, they become happy, even while living in this poor, painful life. They will fall in love with all the goodness in my Will. The total sacrifice of everything will be an honor for them. They will desire it, want it and long for it. This is why I push you so much to make known what I say to you regarding my Will. Everything will depend on understanding It, knowing It and loving It.
I responded: My Jesus, I know You would love so much to have this Will of Yours be known, loved and practiced, so that It may have free reign over divine action in the souls. Please, teach these truths to souls Yourself, so they may know the great good your Will contains, and the great goodness they will receive from It. Your direct word contains a magic force, a powerful magnet, the virtue of creative power. How difficult it would be resist the sweet enchantment of your divine word! If everything could be said directly by You, everyone would surrender.
And Jesus: My daughter, I usually show my greatest works first to one single soul, concentrating in her all the goodness my work contains. I deal with her one on one, as if no one else existed. The order of my eternal Wisdom wants it to be this way. First I have to do everything necessary to accomplish my Work completely within her. She must lack nothing. Then I make it flow, as from a vast sea, for the good of the other creatures.
This is what I did with my dearest Celestial Mother. First, with most divine intimacy, I taught Her about the Work of Redemption. No other creature knew anything about It. She prepared Herself to make every sacrifice necessary to have Me descend from Heaven to earth. I did everything as if She were the only Redeemed One. Then, after She delivered Me to the light with Her virginal labor, and everyone could see Me and accept the benefits of Redemption, I gave Myself to all. However, first they had to have a desire to receive Me.
This is how it will happen with my Will. Once I have completed everything within you and my Will triumphs in you, and you in It, then, like an immense overflowing sea, It will flow for the good of all. However, it is necessary to form the first soul before I can have the second.
I was feeling depressed, and a thought disturbed the serenity of my mind.
What if you were at the moment of death, and doubts and fears about the way you behaved during your life arose within you, giving you doubts about your salvation? What would you do?
As I was thinking about this, my sweet Jesus gave me no time to reflect further, or answer my own thought. Moving inside me, He was shaking His head, saddened by my thought.
He told me: My daughter, what are you saying? Thinking about this is an affront to my Will. No fears, doubts or dangers enter into It. These things do not belong to It. They are the miserable rags of the human will. My Will is like a placid sea which murmurs peace, happiness, safety and certainty. The waves It unleashes from Its womb are waves of joys and contentment without end. When you thought about this, I was shaken. My Will is not capable of fear, or doubt, or danger. The soul who lives in It becomes a stranger to the miserable rags of human will. What could my Will possible fear? Who could ever raise doubts about Its work? Before the Sanctity of my Will operating, all tremble and are forced to bow their heads, adoring the work of my Will.
Now I want to tell you something very consoling for you, and great glory for Me. It will happen to you, at your death within time, just as it happened to Me, at my death. During my life, I worked, I prayed, I preached, I instituted the Sacraments, I suffered unheard-of pain, and even death itself. My Humanity saw almost nothing of the great good It had done. Even the Sacraments had no life, as long as I remained on earth. As soon as I died, my death sealed all my works, my words, my pain and the Sacraments. The fruit of my death confirmed all that I did. My works, my pain, my words, the Sacraments which I instituted, were raised to life again, to continue until the end of the ages. My death put all my works in motion, making them rise again to eternal life. This was only right, because my Humanity contained the Eternal Word and a Will which has no beginning and no end, and is not subject to dying. Nothing of it was to perish, not even one word. Everything was to continue until the end of the ages, and then pass into Heaven to beatify all the Blessed, eternally.
The same will happen with you. My Will lives in you, speaks to you, makes you work and suffer in It. It will let nothing perish, not even one word of the many truths which I have manifested to you about my Will. It will put everything in motion, It will make everything rise again.
Your death will be confirmation of all that I have said to you. While living in my Will, everything the soul does, suffers, prays and says, contains the Act of the Divine Will. None of this will perish. It will all remain in the world, like so many Lives, all of them in the act of giving Life to creatures.
Your death will tear the veil covering all the truths I told you. They will rise again like many suns, casting away all the doubts and difficulties that seemed to cover them during your life. As long as you live in this low world, you will see little or nothing in others of all the great good my Will wants to do through you. Only after your death, will everything have its full effect.
After this, I spent the night without being able to close my eyes, either to sleep, or to receive the usual visits of my adorable Jesus. When He does come, I become drowsy in Him, and for me that is better than sleep. So, I spent that time doing the hours of the Passion, and making my usual rounds in His adorable Will. Then I saw it was daylight, which happens to me often.
I said to myself: My Love, You neither came, nor did You let me sleep. What shall I do without You?
At that moment, my sweet Jesus moved inside me.
He told me: My daughter, in my Will there are no nights, nor sleep. It is always full daylight and full vigil. There is no time to sleep because there is much to do and to take. Be happy in It. You must learn to live in the long day of my Will, so that my Will may have Its Life of continuous Action within you. There you will find the most beautiful rest, because my Will shall make you rise more and more into your God, and will allow you to comprehend Him better. The more you comprehend God, the more your soul will be enlarged to receive that eternal rest, with all the happiness and joy divine rest contains. What a beautiful rest this will be for you, a rest which can be found only in my Will!
While He was saying this, He came out from inside me and threw His arms around my neck. He hugged me tight and I stretched out my arms and hugged Him too. In the meantime, my sweet Jesus called all the people clinging to His feet.
Jesus said to them: Rise up to my Heart, and I will show you what my Will has done in this soul.
Having said this, He disappeared.
I felt I could no longer be without my sweet Jesus. For many days I longed for His return in vain.
From my heart I said to Him: My Love, come back to your little daughter. Dont You see I cant take it any more? You expose my poor existence to such a hard martyrdom by depriving me of You! Tired and exhausted, I abandoned myself in His Most Holy Will.
I was reading while I was in this frame of mind, and I felt someone wrapping his arms around my neck. My mind became drowsy. I was was wrapped in the arms of Jesus, concealed, completely hidden within Him. I wanted to tell Him about my sorrow, but He gave me no time for that.
Jesus spoke, telling me: My daughter, youre still not convinced that when my Justice justly chastises peoples, I am forced to hide from you? You are nothing but a little particle that binds all the other particles of the creatures, and keeps them in a familiar relationship with yourself, feasting. Ready to strike the other particles that are bound to you, my Justice finds Itself in a quandry and refrains from striking. Thats why, during these last few days, while sending chastisements on to the world, I remained hidden from you, even though I still remained within you.
As He was saying this, I found myself outside my body. He showed me where, at various places on earth there had been earthquakes in one place, grave fires somewhere else, with many people dead, and all kinds of trouble in other places. It looked like more grave evil were still to come. I was frightened, and I prayed. Then my adorable Jesus came back. Standing before Him, I saw myself looking withered and ugly.
I said to Him: My Life and my All, look at me. I have become so ugly, like I am withering. See how I change without You! Your absence makes me lose the freshness and beauty that is in your grace. I feel like I am under the burning sun, all dried out and withered.
Then Jesus made me suffer with Him a bit. This suffering turned into celestial dew upon my soul, restoring my vital fluids.
Taking my poor soul in His hands, He added: Poor daughter of Mine, dont be afraid. Just as my absence made you wither, my returning will give you back your freshness, beauty and color. Your suffering with Me is a rejuvenating morning dew. It also serves as a door knocker that I can use to knock at the doors of your soul, and you at mine. This way, the doors can always be opened, and you may freely enter into Me, and I into you.
My breath will be like a breeze, keeping you cool, preserving the gift of beauty which I meant for you when I created you.
While He was saying this, He blew very intensely upon me. Then He hugged me and disappeared.
I was in my usual state, after suffering bitterly from the absence of my sweet Jesus. He finally came, and without even saying a word to me, He forced me into a painful position, perfectly immobile. I felt alive, but I couldnt move. I felt pain that I could not escape, because I was forced by the presence of Jesus and His Most Holy Will to remain immobile. When He finally felt like it, my blessed Jesus reached out and grabbed me and He pressed me to His womb.
He said to me: My daughter, do you see how painful this state of immobility can be? Its really hard. Usually when a person feels the sting of pain, they try to move away from it. Thats a sign of life. Contortions are mute voices asking for help. They move those around to compassion. You have experienced how painful that is. Do you know why I put you in this state of immobility? To make you understand the state in which my Grace finds itself, and to receive a reparation from you.
My Grace find itself in such a state of immobility! It is Life, constantly in motion. It is continuously trying to give itself to creatures. However the creatures reject it, leaving it immobilized. It feels Life. It wants to give Life, but it is forced by human ingratitude to remain immobile, without the slightest movement. What pain! My Grace is light, and as light, it naturally spreads. On the other hand, creatures do nothing but spread darkness. While my light is trying to enter into them, darkness spreads, paralyzing my light, leaving it immobilized, without any Life for the creatures. My Grace is Love. It contains enough Life to ignite everyone. But the creature loves something else, leaving this love as if it were dead to her. Then my Grace feels the most harrowing pain from being so immobilized by the creatures.
These constraints are so painful for my Grace! And its not just those who openly call themselves evil who do this. Those who are said to be religious, pious souls do the same. Its often something trifling, or just not to their liking. They make a fuss, sometimes over the most vile attachments, or perhaps because they cant get any satisfaction through their own will, even in holy things. Even though my Grace is all motion and Life for them, they still leave it immobilized. They cling to whatever they like, fussing over human attachments, or anything that gives them a feeling of satisfaction with their own self-interest. Thus, in the place of Grace, they substitute their own self-interest as their life and they become their own idol.
Do you know who is the comforter, the indivisible companion, the one who enraptures the motion and the Life of my Grace? It is the soul who lives in my Will. She accelerates its motion more and more, and not even for one instant does she render it immobile. Wherever my Will reigns, my Grace is constantly in motion, continuously feasting. It always has something to do, for it never remains grieved or idle. The soul in whom my Will reigns is the favorite of my Grace. She is its little secretary desk, in whom it places the secrets of its sorrows and its joys. It entrusts everything to her, because my Will has sufficient space to store everything that Grace contains, because she is continuously being born from my Supreme Will.
I was praying and fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will. I wanted to wander everywhere, up to the Heavens, looking for that Supreme I love you which is not subject to any interruption. I wanted to make it my own, so that I too might have an I love you which is never interrupted, echoing the Eternal I love you. Then, by possessing the source of the true I love you within me, I would have an I love you for one and all. I would have it for each and every motion or act, for each heartbeat and breath, for every I love you of my Jesus Himself. When I reached the womb of the Eternal One, I made Their I love you my own. I kept repeating, everywhere and upon each thing, a lullaby of I love yous to my Supreme Lord.
While I was doing this, a thought interrupted my I love you, telling me: What are you doing? You could be doing something else! What is your I love you anyhow? How special could this I love you of yours really be?
Then my sweet Jesus moved quickly inside me.
He said: What are you saying? How special for Me is the I love you directed to Me?! My daughter, the I love you is everything! The I love you is love. It is veneration, esteem, heroism and sacrifice. it is trust toward the one to whom it is directed. The I love you possesses the One who encloses it. The I love you is a little phrase, but it weighs as much as Eternity! The I love you encloses everything, involves everyone. It both diffuses and restricts itself. It rises up high and it descend down to the bottom. It impresses itself everywhere, and it never stops.
What, my daughter! How special can your I love you really be?! Its origin is eternal. In the I love you the Celestial Father generated Me, and in the I love you the Holy Spirit proceeded. In the I love you the Eternal FIAT made the whole of creation, and in the I love you It forgave guilty man and redeemed him. In the I love you the soul finds everything in God, and God finds everything in the soul. This is why the value of the I love you is infinite, it is full of life and of energy. It never gets tired, it surpasses everything and triumphs over all.
This I love you directed to Me: I want to see it and hear it on your lips. I want it in your heart, in the flying of your thoughts, in every drop of your blood, both in your pain and in your joy, even in the food you eat, in everything.
The life of my I love you must be long within you. My FIAT, which reigns in you, will place on it the seal of the Divine I love you.
After this, a Sun appeared in my mind, very high up. Its light was inaccessible. Little flames came out continuously from the center of it, each one containing an I love you. As they came out, they arranged themselves in order around this inaccessible light. These little flames were bound by a thread of light to that inaccessible light, which nourished the life of the little flames. There were enough of these little flames to fill Heaven and earth. I saw our God as the beginning and end of everything; and the little flames were the whole of creation, divinely born of pure love.
I too was a little flame, and my sweet Jesus pushed me to take flight through each little flame, placing on them a double I love you. I dont know how, but then I found myself outside of my body, wandering around, in the midst of those little flames, and impressing my I love you upon each one of them. They were so many that I would get lost. However, a supreme force would reorient me again on my rounds of I love yous.
Afterwards, I found myself in a vast garden, and to my surprise, I found our dear Queen Mother.
Approaching me, she said: My daughter, come with Me and work in this garden. We must plant celestial flowers and divine fruit. Right now, It is almost empty. If there is any plant at all, it must be terrestrial and human. Hence, it is right that we pull it up, so this garden may be all pleasing to my Son Jesus. We must plant the seeds of all my virtues, my works, my pains, because they are the seed of the Fiat Voluntas Tua. Everything I did contained this seed of the Will of God. I would have preferred doing nothing, rather than working or suffering without this seed. All of my glory, the dignity of Motherhood, the highness of Queenship and supremacy over all came to Me from this seed. The whole of creation, all beings, recognized Me as ruler over them, because they saw the Supreme Will reigning in Me. So, we will unite all that I did together with all that you did with this seed of the Supreme Will, and we will plant it in this garden.
My dear Celestial Mother had so many seeds, and I dont know how I found them, but I had a few of my own as well. So we mixed our seeds together and we started to dig little holes to plant them. However, while we were doing this, from behind the high walls of the garden, we heard the noise of weapons and the horrible roar of cannons out on the streets. So we had to run out to help. When we got there, we could see people of various races and different colors. There were many nations united together in waging war, striking them with fear and terror.
Upon seeing this, I was back inside myself, stricken with fright! I was full of sorrow as well because I didnt have a chance to say even one word to my dearest Celestial Mother about my difficulties. May the Most Holy Will of God be always blessed, and may everything be for His glory.
After going through several days of being totally deprived of my most sweet Jesus, I kept repeating my sorrowful refrain: Everything is over for me. I will never see Him again! I will never again hear His voice, which was such a delight for me! I have been abandoned by the One who was my contentment. He was Everything to me! What a long martyrdom! What life without life, without Jesus!
While my heart was drowning in pain, my sweet Jesus came out from within me. Taking me in His arms, He wrapped my arms around His neck, and I abandoned my head upon His chest. This was an act which expressed to Him that I just couldnt take it anymore. Jesus, hugged me tight, and then leaned on my breast with His knees, pressing against me really hard.
He said to me: My daughter, you must die continuously. And while he was saying this, He made me share some of His pain.
Then, assuming a freindlier attitude, He added: My daughter, what do you fear, if the Power of my Will is in you? It is so true that my Will is in you, that in one instant It transported you into my pain, and you offered yourself to receive them with love. While you were suffering, you stretched out your arms to embrace my Will. And as you embraced It, everything that lives in my Will; the Angels, the Saints, my dearest Celestial Mother, and the very Divinity, felt the grip of your embrace. They all ran toward you to embrace you.
In chorus, they said: How pleasing and dear is the embrace of our little exile, who lives on earth in order to do the Will of God alone, just as we do it in Heaven! She is our joy. She is the new and the only feast which comes to us from the earth.
If only you knew what it means for a soul to live in my Will! There is no division between her and Heaven. Wherever my Will is, she is. Her acts, her pain and her words, are in action, operative everywhere along with my Will. My Will is everywhere and the soul takes her place in the order of creation. Through the electricity of the Supreme Will, she is in communication with all created things.
Created things are in order and harmony among themselves. Each one is the support of the other, and not one of them can move. May it never be that even one thing created by Me should move. Creation would become all upset.
There is a secret accord among them, a mysterious force. While all the spheres live in space, suspended in the air without any support, by the power of communication, which they have among themselves, each thing sustains the other. This is how one who does my Will is in communication with everything and sustained by all the works of her Creator.
Everyone recognizes her, loves her and offers her the electricity, the secret to living together with them, suspended between Heaven and earth, all sustained only by the power of the Divine and Supreme Will.